Dja

2012-02-01T12:27:00.003+08:00

Complain.. complain.. complain.. humans. cannot live without complaining. who doesnt?

Anyways, donno how to say but currently in a pissed off mode. Why suddenly? Donno. Even my colleague is affected till he told me off about my mood-swings.

Seriously am very truly tired of everything that is happening. i want to take a break. i wanna be out. i wanna be alone.

Such an emo post

2012-01-25T23:55:00.004+08:00

Saye lapar. Td kate da siap masak smue. Bile balik tak ade makanan. Pd hal td kate will save some for me. Camne nie. Geram tau. Bile balik tak makan, kene marah. Ckp next time tak nak masakkan lg. cube kalo anak kesayangan minta suroh masakkan, bukan main suke lg masak. Lepas tuh kite2 pon tak bley makan. Haiiizz.

Kat mane lagi nak luahkan perasaan? Mcm da penat larh dgr isi hati org lain. Sape nak dgr isi luahan hati saye nie? Shouldnt have went to 4pm sey. Shorter time to revise. Alurh, nak revise ape sey. I dont even understand d whole module. Bile agaknye nak paham? Lg 2 hari nak UT2 and bley nak main2 lagi. Cepat2 larh habis so dat i can move on to Phase 2!

Dja sedar dja nie sape. Best fren saye da tak ade di sisi. At least dulu ade jugak tempat nak mengadu. Skrg? Kat rumah da tak mcm dulu. Nenek larh tempat saye bermanje. Sejak nenek dok umah paman, sunyi rasenye hati ku ini. At least there is still someone to talk n laugh with. Satu-satu pergi meninggalkan saye. So now i have to stand alone?

Will anyone miss me when im gone?

BTE & RTE

2012-01-09T09:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday was another long day where i didnt have the time to rest or going out with friends. I want to have my license fast. Onegaishimasu.

2 theory classes back to back was not bad at all but the in-between was worst. had to wait 100 mins before my next class. good thing unc was in the area. he treated me breakfast/lunch. hahahaha. lame sey tak kuar ngan pakcik sorg tuh. ngan die sorg jek.

head is still spinning from doing his accounts. haiiz. today having evaluation. hope to pass so i can proceed with the test already.

Currently in office with the cleaning lady. tak pe. yg lain tak masok pon bagos. bley relax sikit. nnti lunch nak kene bace buku. buku basic n riding theory. all the best!!!

2012-01-07T23:37:00.003+08:00

Oh yea. Tompang telingz on bike n tumtum with ni. Its nice. First time riding that far n dat fast. Seram pon seram arh tp experience die best. Maybe next time it will b me riding n telingz d pillion.

Sunny day and the wind that was blowing was nice. When the classroom was cool, you noe wat u get. Sleepyhead dja. Yes. Dats right. I was dozing off unconsciously a lot of times. Especially before n after lunch. The best partis, i can still write when dozing. Good thing i was not snoring. Hahahaha.

Took freebies from RP's open house. Didnt manage to screen through yet but will do so tomorrow.

Met Nick before going jiji adi' house. It was nice talking & catching up on him. Now i noe wat facial wash n perfume he's using. Hohoho. Ok, im not a stalker k. We went to accompany him buy his stuff. Ape jek.

Nenek cooked mee for us. Yea, misses dat very very much. When she's here, i noe i can depend on her n also manja2 with her. Dgn mak aku, jgn harap. Nak manje2 mesti kene marah nye. Ngan sape lagi kan kalo tak ngan nenek aku. Atok is forever irritating so lets not talk about him.

Bsok i got my RTL1.01 class at 9.20am. Better sleep now. Tak bley bgn, mati larh. Tak bley masok class pasal lmbt n duit burn. Tak bley. Tak bley. This month very very tight.

I would like to qoute from my lecturer: no complains doesnt mean no problems.

Sekian, selamat malam

2012 - tahun baru azam baru

2012-01-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

Usually the first post of the year would be "oh wow !! My first post for the year, yadda yadda yadda" eh, tak penat ke nak ulang bende yg same tiap kali nak update post?

Tahun baru azam baru. Eh, masih ade org yg blogging ke? Lame dok aku memblogging nie. Dr zaman aku skola dulu. The most in thing sey. Skrg? Da ade facebook da tak de org pon updateblog diorg. Mungkin digunakan utk menjual barangan mereka aje. Slain drpd itu, kalo nk luahkan perasaan kat sini, lame dok nak dpt reaction org ramai. Lg bagos kat facebook kan. Lepas aje update status, ramai jek org2 kepo yg action n step showing concer comment kat post ko tuh kan. Tapi tak ape. Lebih elok pasal at least kalo saye luahkan perasaan kat sini pon, kalo tak ade org ataupun ingat yg blog nie masih wujud, lebih selamat. Mane tak nye, tak dikunjungi org. Kalo ade pon ape salah nye kan. Saye tak pakse pon suroh pegi cari blog nie utk bace setiap keluhan dan rintihan hati yg kecik ini.

Kalo larh nak update pasal diri ku ini amat larh pjg so to save the hassle, tak payah larh saye cerita. Betol tak?

Besok skola jd perlu larh saye mengundurkan diri utk tidur dan akan di sambung pada keesokan hari nye ye.

Selamat malam dan mimpi larh yg indah~

Depressed

2011-02-20T23:36:00.003+08:00

Oh, its 2011 already & my first post for d year. Still surviving even though have not been updating this regularly like last time. I miss my free time. I miss my short trips. I miss my old me. 2010 has been a very tiring year. Pilot project, tonnes of scolding sessions, helping events but was not appreciated. The best part was i thought by doing the other werk i would be happier. It was not. It became worst.

Sessions was different. Programme-wise, we still have to conduct. I just dont get it. The rest d people who r doing d same r just clocking in d sessions. Why issit different? Just because im just a diploma holder? Even so, d shit dat i have to go thru, its definitely more than them. But pay-wise, d difference is significant. And now im hearing u r over-paying some staff!? How ironic.

I am very tired of all the nonsensical act in d office. I wanna go away, very far from everybody. Be it colleagues, friends & even family members. I wanna go where people doesnt know me n i can start anew. Easier said than done dja.

Ive had it. Ive had it from everyone!!!!

Not only with werk, even my friends, who used to b very close since secondary school are like trying to find faults with me. Arent u all suppose to know me best.
The conversation i had with her:
Her - djah..aku hrp ko shat2 slalu la k..aku nk ucp trime ksh kt ko sb lupekn kwn2 ko..aku tau ko skrg da bjaya..watever it is aku slalu ingt kwn2 aku&aku tk sgka rupenya kwn aku lupekn org lain..jg diri bbaik ar eh..
Me - Huh? Aku tak paham. Ape maksod? Kalo ko kate aku lupe kan kengkwn, i beg to differ. Aku slalu ingat psl kengkwn aku. Aku ade gak kol/sms tp so far, kengkwn yg tak ingat aku. Aku sendiri tak tau knp ko ckp mcm gitu. Korg smue mane bile aku perlukan korg? So far smue cari aku bile nak kahwin, buat outing atau bersalin. Lepas tuh? N by d way, ko da kenal aku bape lame eh? U should noe me best. Berjaya? U think so? Alhamdulillah. Doakan larh ye
Her - Yg aku mksdkn,geng2 kt..ktorg smua maklum ko sbuk..aku pnh je msg ko,tp ko tk reply..ko kt ktorg mana ms ko perlukn ktorg?ko d cr ktorg ke?aku so far bab kwn aku tk pnh tolak..aku,aishah n yaya pape ktorg akn tnykn ko..aku dgn yaya pun bknnye slalu cntct..ktorg kalo d pape,ktorg ingt kt ko..mgkn sb ms2 ktorg kt msia tp ni bkn excuse..seriously kalo d pape,tgn ktorg sntiasa bkak tuk ko..ko je tk pnh tanyakn ktorg..aku sdh sb ko g tgk k.nurul tk bilg..mgkn aishah n yaya tk rs tp aku je yg sdh..aku sygkn psahabtn kwn2 aku esp.ko,haidah,yaya n aishah..ni je kwn2 yg aku rapat..tk bmakna tk cntct ko,aku lupakn ko..ko je yg sbuk..aku PERNAH msg ko,tp ko TAK reply..
Me Yana, sejak bile nye ko sms aku tak pernah reply? Busuk2 aku, paling2 pon aku reply bsok nye. Mmg skrg aku tgh sibok giller. Balik lewat mlm. Hujung minggu kene keje tp tuh da mmg dlm name keje. Psl kak nurul, aku pegi sendiri pon psl kebetulan aku tgh free dat time. Skurang2nya die larh satu2 manusia yg sentiasa menerima kedatangan aku dgn tgn terbuke. Ko cube tanye pukul brape aku dtg jengok die. Rase2 ko bley g kalo aku kate aku ziarah die kul 9mlm? Aku paham keadaan korg2 yg tk bley balik lewat sbb tuh aku tak ajak. Yg pergi ngan muj n fana pon same. Aku minta maaf larh kalo aku terguris hati ko tp nie larh kehidupan aku skrg. Aku tak pernah niat pon nk sisih kengkwn tp so far aku pon tak pernah dpt ape2 update dr korg. Ape2 hal, jgn kaitkan aku mcm haidah. Kalo korg ajak, pernah aku tolak undangan korg? Terkecuali aku kene kerja, baru aku ckp tak boleh. Lmbt mcm mane pon aku cube usaha utk dtg jugak. Terima kasih krn ingatkan aku yg aku masih ade kengkwn yg masih ingatkan aku. Aku pon actually aru balik dr keje gak so nk bersihkan diri. Good nite n take care
HerSkalipun ktorg tkle ikt ko,at least ko bole bilg or tny kn..tkpe la..mgkn aku je yg salah tafsirkn..aku tk pnh samakn ko dgn haidah sb dr dulu aku mmg org tgh antr korg..n aku tk tau pe mslh korg sbnrnye..mgkn kkurangan aku sbg kwn dan aku tk lyk dianggp sbg kwn..maaf ganggu ko..slmt mlm :'(

I just cant understand why d hell she even has that kind of idea.

myself

2010-07-13T14:44:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling better now after the thrashing session. but it all came from d bottom of my heart. Hontou!!

my thoughts

2010-07-13T13:04:00.001+08:00

i was thinking from d time i received his sms and all d way from ITE Sime to Orchard. how can these things happened?

7 years. Ever since the first time i saw u, its not dat i fell head over heals over u. its just dat i'm taken aback by ur mysterious aura. hahahaha.. yea... knew it since then sey.

7 long years that i've liked you and now i think i've become greedier by the years. Last time, it was sufficient to just see you from a far. Even if you said 'Hi' or just hearing you laugh would had made me on cloud 9. its not like now its not d same. it is. but i really feel that, the greedy side of me had made me wanting to do more and almost everything with you. From outings to as simple as dinner, i would be estatic if you are there. Can say that almost most of our outings u cant make it. i would feel dissappointed but knowing your situation, i would always tell myself that it was ok. You had your own commitments & stuff and then i would just smile and explain it to the rest.

why am i writing this post? well, i think i need to let it out my chest. Where can i go? i cant tell my mum. hell she will beat me to death. my sisters? they will tell you bout it. better to be safe and just tell u here. and i dont think you would even read this post. safer way rite!

I noe that ure having a very hard struggle. last time, ur struggle was different. now, it got worst. i noe. but luv, one thing at a time. u cant possibly do everything at once. ure not superman. ure just a normal human being who has feelings and would also need some time on ur own.

and yes, everybody has their own fights. but isnt it better to fight it together with other people? wouldnt it lighten your burden, by a bit? No one can understand your struggle or your fight but u, urself? stop trying to make them understand? this was ur exact words taken but do you realise that no matter what, u cant fight ur battles alone? im not telling that i'm volunteering myself but u have a lot of back ups so why cant u use them? r u reserving them for a bigger battle or ure not gonna use them at all because you dont have d heart to use them?

You are actually blessed with what you have surrounding you. Even if you have complicated family members, but hey, your friends would be always here to b dat hand to tap on ur shoulders saying uve done ur best or even extending their shoulders to u to lean or cry on.

anyway, watever that i've typed or said will not affect u. why? coz i'm a nobody to u. i just realized that in my journey to Orchard yesterday. u have others that have greater value than me and maybe knowing me might have been a waste of time for u.

Till then my luv, take care. u noe u will always b here in my heart till u meet a nice lady who can understand and love u as who u are. then, i promise i will let u go

Newly obsession

2010-01-23T15:11:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah!!! Super like these 2 pictures of him. Taken from his blog. Hohohohohohohoho...

Presenting my newly obsession, VANNESS WU!!! and also d small boy Xiao Xiao Bin. A very bright n brilliant boy.

And yes, this shows that i am straight, thank you. I like men, and boys too.

Can i have him as my bdae present? I promise, I will be nice *smiles*

dja sewel

2010-01-18T02:09:00.002+08:00

Another edition of dja not sleeping early.

Y is dat so dja?

Y aren't you sleeping?

Now is exactly 0210hrs and i'm amazed dat you're still up.

Are there a lot things on your mind?

Whatcha thinking about?

Or are you excited about certain things?

All i can say is that dja looked confused and is in deep thoughts, always.

Y is dat so?

Maybe she's thinking about work? School?

Or she's thinking about her future?

What ever it is, can you please go and sleep now dja. If not, you are gonna be super cranky tomorrow.

Oh wells, she better go off to sleep or she's gonna get it from me

And by the way, its not other people who did this post. It is still from yours truly but she felt like doing something different.

It is nice writing like you are the 3rd person.

2009, almost ending

2009-12-26T02:20:00.005+08:00

5 more days til 2010 and i'm very excited just thinking bout it.

Chilled with Achid just now over 2 glasses of teh tarik and talked about our plans for 2010.

Oh yeah, Japan trip is confirmed. Need to list down places to go and what to do when we are there.

Onsen! Onsen! Onsen!

KYOTO!!! TEMPURA SHOP!!!! MUST SEE THE COOK!!! *blush*

Other than that, I'm still thinking of the new programme me n Mint will be in-charge of starting Jan 2010. Oh yea, its kinda funny to put 2010 as '10 only.

Not that i'm complaining but at least, even if i'm doing programme, i no need to do concept paper, do up the proposed budget, do the report, close account, bla bla bla and the list can go on and on. I was told that its something like GLEAMS, so if i'm low on cash, i just have to ask for it. Oh yea, live is sho good~

But if i'm ever gonna screw this programme up, i'm sho gonna be dead.

Still not sleeping at 2.32am in the morning is a record, as per kak aishah's comment. Mane tak nye. Selalunye by 12am da tido sey. Why am i still up? Donno. Just dont feel like sleeping now. I feel like i have a lot of things to do, so little time.

Oh yea, here are some of the things that i wanna do for 2010:

i wanna finish my PGD, once (no to retake papers!)

wanna learn something bout tourism

relearn on how to sew clothes

go Japan, again

start baking again

start to read books on a regular basis (1st, to finish Mun's book. haiya, still havent finished reading it)

need to sit down n talk to ummi (or can i just slap her instead?)

try new stuff (oh yea, plus those we used to do but never continue to do till now)

make lots n lots of new friends (oh yea, friends with benefits please!! Onegaishimasu!)

find my significant other?

Oh yea, funny posts by people when i changed my relationship status to single on FB:

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Johari Johan
promote diri nampak...
December 21 at 12:03am ·

Johari Johan
Aku nk kenalkan....ko nk tak?
December 21 at 12:04am ·

Dja Dojie
erm... tak de larh nk promote diri. stakat nk letak jek
December 21 at 9:35am ·

Johari Johan
hehe...aku pon nk letak jap agi..
December 21 at 11:22am ·

Dja Dojie
ko yang kepo!!
December 21 at 11:36am ·

Musfirah Habib
Dja, ituhari I heard u nak kahwin...biar betul???ini single lak
December 21 at 1:15pm ·

Nur Aisya
aku pun.....single jugak per...
December 21 at 1:29pm ·

Dja Dojie
eh, sejak bile mus? ko biar betol??!!Aku nie masih single larh. ke ko da tersalah dja?
December 21 at 1:42pm ·

Herny Natra
ishk! nk kawin tk blg! hahahha...
December 21 at 1:52pm ·

Dja Dojie
no larh. if yes, i will confirm tell everybody. no worries
December 21 at 1:53pm ·

Aliyah Syahfiqah
enjoy while you can....
December 21 at 4:29pm ·

Dja Dojie
Semestinye. Till blom puas g jepon, slagi tu tk nk ade boifren. WHO IS WITH ME???
December 21 at 4:37pm ·

Musfirah Habib
entahlah...my mom said.I pon tak caya..dja tak cakap pape lagi...kalau gosip dah keluar...bermakna tahun depan kot..hehe..InsyaAllah
December 21 at 6:17pm ·

Nuraishah Abdullah
alah, if you get a nice dude, pun bleh enjoy jugak. if you are single cos the guys you met thus far are basically hopeless-cant-make-it type, then being single is more enjoyable. Take it all in perspective beb - never close an eye if a potential door opens!
December 21 at 7:57pm ·

Nadiah Arifin
I'm with you!!!! Nk gi jepon!!!!
December 21 at 8:32pm ·

Raudah Binte Abdul Rashid
u've always been single wat ??!! .......
December 21 at 8:55pm ·

Dja Dojie
yea... mun knows me best!!!mus: i tink ur mum got d wrong dja. seriously. erm... gosip? sape yg start gosip tu eh. next year? tk dapat larh. ais: hah ahaha... yea... still finding a nice dude. those hopeless-cant-make-it type are alot. they r basically everywhere. still waiting for my knight in shining armour!
Tue at 9:27am ·

Dja Dojie
yaya: i almost forgot to reply. jom. i'm going again next year. ko da keje kan. g simpan duit. kite main snow sesame. amcm?
Tue at 9:28am ·

& yes, bruder is getting married next year. In my opinion, he's not ready. Even my parents thought so too. Who is really am ready for it? Tell me. Coz i noe i'm not

my 24th bdae~

2009-07-07T11:00:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah~

My bdae just passed. Yay... Hoooraaayyy~~~

Thank you all for the best wishes and pressies. Lurpe them all. Yes kai, even the guess purse that you bought me. Appreciate it lots. Please dont keep saying that i dont like it. I like it. Hontou da

Ouh yeah... 24 years old already... Getting old and still, there are alot of things left undone. I noe my years left on earth are very limited, as in, everytime you celebrate your bdae, your time left to live will be minus off. Because of this, I am scared. I am scared that I still have not finish the task given to me. I am scared if I have let Him down as his humble slave.

Everyday, I've been helping out doing the homevisits for our major event. 400plus homes to cover, over a period of 2 months. Other than that, still have to do my ongoing programme.

I'm not trying to complain about my workload, please dont be mistaken. I just wanna say what has been bugging me ever since I started the homevisits this year.

Last year, I had a very good partner. Even though it we had to cover the homes till 9pm, at least we can still laugh it out before we end our day. Not saying that this year's partner was no good. She was excellent. She is a very detailed person till she can comment about whether the house was smelly or not (hey, just joking. Dont take it too seriously wokay bebeh)

What I'm trying to say is, why do people have to suffer? Is it because it is God's test to them? But why is it so hard for them to overcome this suffering and be a better person? Is it because they deserve it or its just plainly a test?

Humans, they tend to do stoopid things but why can't they learn from their mistakes? Why must they do it again and again and still cant see the fault? Why cant they do something to really change their destiny?

Why must the rich people become richer while the poor people become poorer? Why cant the poor come out of poverty and become rich? I'm amazed by the responses I get when i conducted the homevisits. Da bagi betis nak peha. Haiiiiz.... Manusia manusia...

i left my heart behind 3 weeks ago

2009-06-01T17:00:00.001+08:00

Me and my bebek. Misssh him sho much!!!

The beautiful scenery that is very heart-warming.
They will always welcome you no matter where you come from

My luv up in the sky. Fell head over heels when I 1st saw the almost sunset sky.
Hey luv, when will I see you again? My heart is aching for u

Picture was taken on the last day of our trip. Sho sad coz had to leave Japan already but happy as finally, we were able to have a lot of happy memories there.

I will come back for you again. Till then, wait for me. Please tell Sakura not to bloom til i'm there. Please tell Ame not to drop till i reach to the observatory to admire her. Please tell Kaze not to blow til i'm up the hill to embrace her.

Japan Trip

2009-05-29T10:50:00.002+08:00

Wokay, its been a while and I tink i wanna tell everyone about the trip that I just went to.

Pssstt... Wanna noe the destination???

Come on close. I will whisper the name.

*in a whisper*

It starts with J and ends with N.

5 letter word

Its has been my dream destination since young

YESSA!!! SEKAI!!! its J.A.P.A.N.

Went there for 16 days and its still not enough. I wanna go there again.

I miss the cold weather.

I miss the Oolong cha that we drank for every meal.

I miss the observatory.

I miss the tatami mats.

I miss the greenery view.

I miss UNIQLO.

I miss the tempura.

I miss Yusaku.

I wanna meet Yusaku.

I wanna meet the handsome cook at the tempura shop in Kyoto

I wanna meet Cinderelly again

I wanna meet Mr Fuji

I wanna go osen

I wanna go meet the beautiful Sakura

I wanna go Himeiji-jo

I wanna go picnic at their parks

I wanna stay there longer

I wanna go to the hot places with my special someone

I wanna have a boifren before my next trip

Is it possible?

My heart is no longer here in Singapore. I wanna travel there again. I wanna werk there. I wanna live there. I wanna spend my life there.

I noe that what we want, we will never get. I am fully aware of this but there is something in heart that is jumping and saying 'You can do it. You will get what you want but not all.'

Next step towards my dream: Werk hard, save alot, save my leave, buck up on my Japanese and make the trip as an annual thingy.

Now, have to convince both parents on letting me go for these trips.

getting sicker & sicker by the day

2009-04-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

Just wanna tell the whole world dat as of today, i've been coughing non-stop for 5 days and my head hurts because of it. No voice, throat damn hurts, cant eat, cant sleep and donno till when this cough/sore throat will end. Night cycling is coming up soon (6 days as of this post) and also the Japan trip. Cant be sick... Must get well soon. I'm really getting this close to my dream come true. Gambare!!!~~

Japan, matte ne. *coughs*

being sick for twice in a month

2009-03-27T15:05:00.000+08:00

Come to tink to it, I seldom get sick. Can count by my 2 hands on how many times dat fell sick in a year. For 2009, tot dat its a good year for me but ending March, I fell sick, twice. The difference is only a week.

People always say that if you fall sick, its because God loves you and wants you to clear you of your sins. If i'm falling sick this much, does this mean I have done alot of bad things... And dis made me tink back on wat i've been doing so far... From early 2008 up til today.

Another theory was, I've been working too much, and this is actually a sign for me to slow down as my body is telling me that it's gonna break down anytime... And if this is true, it is super duper scary... Why you may ask? Its because I've went over my limits. And my limits are as such. I can't go on anymore.

How I wish I can go and give more than what I have given now... Is this a sign that is telling me to stop?? Or its actually a sign to ask me to tink about it thoroughly? Should I take another path?

"Oh God, I am only your humble slave.
Please show me the light to the correct path...
If this is not for me, I redha...
We can only plan, but you determine if its right for us
For you know what is the best for each and every one."

own time own target

2009-03-24T21:34:00.002+08:00

2nd post for the year~~~

today... i'm not feeling well... blocked nose with sore throat & ears dat can hear d *teeeeeeeeeeet* sound... and i was sick since thursday. bleeckh~

umi said to advertise my blog... for wat? anyway, no one wanna read wat i'm gonna write. Its for me and those who knows my link... Yang lain tu, tak penting.

today, i donno why but maybe i'm too stressed with werk, my legs brought me to the salon and i cut my hair!!! Its all back to square one bebeh... Its better i ask d barber (is dis d correct term? i didnt cut it at a barber. i cut it at d salon. and its cheap.) than i cut myself it rite? rite?

by the way... wat umi said was true... my blog does look dead... haha hahas... see larh how... if i stumble upon nice2 blogskin which are not dat difficult to use, i might change it. If not, maybe dats d end of it?

Bye 2008... Hello 2009

2009-01-02T00:07:00.006+08:00

Hello all...

First and foremost... I would like to apologise for my loooooooooooooooooooong absence... Did dat not on purpose. Kinda had too many things on my hands.

My 1st post for 2009... Lets just hope that I can update here as often as I can... Lets change for the better... ganbatte~~~!!!

I just finished my camp+talent tingy. It was sumwhere between 19-22 Dec. The preparation was damn tiring. Hahahahas... I got like 1 month to really prepare everything after Tribute 2 Volunteers. Good thing I was off from the committee... If not, I tink I will be in happy land...

Doing Ramadhan on Wheels was the last straw... Lan quitted like 3 weeks before the event... & being the only staff in-charge was sumting that i really cant handle, alone... But thank god, its finally over... The before the event was sumthing like up to my neck already but the after event was really a cut off tingy for me. Other than the reports (mind you, for this event i have to do 3 separate reports), i still have to close the account, count the number of participants who came for all 3 events, send 'thank you' letters to all of our sponsors who supported our events, doing up concept paper for the upcoming events (camp, talent tingy n graduation) n d list goes on and on and on and on...

On good days, which is damn rare, I will go home @ 7.30pm (to do my maghrib prayers first). On normal & bad days, which is like almost everyday of the week, I will knock off from werk @ 11pm or 11.30pm. Are you saying that I'm crazy??? Why the hell would I go home sho damn late almost everynite? Hahahahas... The answer is: 'Werk larh... DUH!!! Why the hell would I go home suka-suka sho damn late?'

In the last 2 months of 2008, I kinda had a hard time doing up my werk. Maybe its because of my body is just too tired of the looooooooooong hours of werking & not enough rest... I couldnt even take any leaves due to events... Had quarrels with my Head of Deparment... I was told I'm a loner at werk (which is actually not true. I just cant be bother to talk nonsense all the time so most of the time i just keep quiet), I'm not hip, cool & funky (am I really dat boring?) but hey... I am me... Why should I be sumone else so that other people would be happy with me? Shouldnt I be true to myself and people like me for me?

Yeah... I've come to terms to my werk @ my current werk place. I tink its getting better. Slightly better, i tink. I noe I have to take things 1 step at a time. I've been told that i'm not super gal... Noted on dat.

Anyway, I got a lil sumthing dat really made me sad. I pm sumone who I really didnt talk to for a very looooooooooong time... I just said Hi & how are you... Like normal... but the reply dat I got was sho damn sarcastic... Hahahas... Macam tak biase plak... Putting dat aside. She said dat she's dissappointed for my 'dissappearing act'... I'm not magician... I dont do acts. I'm just damn busy with events. And the saddest part was, she said dat she's not gonna bother me with her planning of outings anymore. I'm not sure whether you're gonna read this post but here goes...

I tot u said dat ure gonna be supporting me no matter what. You were the one who encourage me to go into social service line coz u noe dat i have this passion to help people. Is it wrong of me to really go out 200% to help these people? I dont know about you but when I got to know that people changes because of the smallest or slightest thing I did for them, I'm overwhelmed coz you know, these people arent the normal people you see on the streets, rather they are the outcasted people, or you would say, those rebels and at risks youths.

To see them change for the better, isnt it for the better of our society? It may be a very small percentage but it is a huge difference for us. Like a story that one of my counselors told me, an old man was walking at the beach one sunny afternoon... he saw a young boy throwing starfishes into the sea. He walked to the boy and said 'dear boy, what are you doing?' the boy replied 'i'm throwing the starfishes back into the sea. The tide is getting lower'. The old man said 'But you cant possibly finish the whole beach. It is impossible!' The boy took a starfish and throw it back into the sea and replied 'I made a difference to that starfish'

I noe, I am not an angel nor god but I would really love to help them get back to the right path of live and be a sumbody later in their lives. If you dont like me doing all these, I'm sorry but I dont think I wanna do a U-turn & change my course of work.

If you are asking me, honestly, I feel dat I've been outcasted by you. If you say that I deserve it, its ok. Noted with a very big thank you. At least now I know that you truly dont understand me as per what you claimed. You arent actually willing to support me through thick and thin. Being me, so naive, I actually believe each & every word you said. Anyways, I really appreciated what you've done for me up until now. If you feel like you wanna update me with your life, I'm always here & will always be there to lend you my ears or my shoulders.

I guess I'm abit stronger now... Still trying to stand on my own 2 feet... Any feedbacks or comments about me are most welcome. I noe I will learn more bout myself through these feedbacks and comments. Life is never easy and I've learnt it the hard way though...

no mood

2008-10-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today is the 28th of Oct 2008. Suddenly i'm feeling like i dont wanna go werk anymore. I'm just feeling nothing and feel like doing nothing. I dont feel like finishing up my reports with are waaaaaaaaaayyyy overdue and i just dont feel like going to any more meetings and doing up any minutes of meeting and what ever dats associated with werk....

Help me.. :~(

I tink i'm just sick and tired of werking der...

Yours truly,
dja

d long awaited pix

2008-10-03T10:45:00.003+08:00

Here's the car dat i dreamt of since the flagging off of ROW'08

Cool rite~~~

Its the car on the right of the screen. Blue color Lotus i dont remember the model.

ramadhan on wheels 2008 (R1)

2008-09-21T15:22:00.003+08:00

yoha people...

yeah... been 'missing in action' for quite a bit. Too busy to do even catch up with family and frens... its unintentionally coz was busy preparing for Ramadhan on wheels... Sowie people... will try to catch up with all of ya sumtime soon k

Yesterday was the showdown... Am very happy with the turn-ups... Volunteers from all walks of life were der... alot of colors if you ask me... We have the people from the US community, Australian international school students... the Sri Lankan students (they were part of this best a'level students der so were here for sum school excursion but they dont look like students at all... more like uncles *laughs out loud), and also the US Navy fleet...

The flagging off ceremony was superb... it was ala F1 (say it was 5 lights... but only 3 lights were der), beautiful sport cars were der (fell in luv with lotus & celica), different types of bikes... a few car clubs to make it a very nice flag off... we even have the checkered flag with our 4PM logo in d middle (its damn cool arh) to grace d flag off...

Iftar was nice... we had mutton briyani with ayam masak merah with sweet and sour fish with dalca and acar and paceri and 10 types of kuih and 4 types of fruits and tea o and teh tarik... oh yearh, not forgetting watever drinks (we got it sponsored) and NEWater (also sponsored). After helping out with the food, i cant even eat the nice food... if i eat, confirm i'm gonna puke it all out... haiiiz... but i got to taste d fish and d mutton... VERY D NICE~~~~ can recommend d caterer if you have any event (dont forget to invite me hor *winks)

Got this american couple was helping out @ d kitchen. The husband looked as if he was drooling while cutting the cake. So i strike a conversation with him.

Me: so sir, fasting?
Him: Oh yes. I'm fasting but we didnt get to wake up early before dawn but we had an early breakfast.
Me: *laughs. So, how do you find fasting?
Him: Oh, its tiring. But i still wanna fast til the sun sets.
His wife: Yes... and i'm very impressed on how muslims are able to fast everyday for d whole month of Ramadhan without fail.

I'm very touched to see them try hard to understand our islamic culture. I have another comm member who really fast d whole day, without even drinking d whole day. Jo said dat should give him a cert saying 'successfully fasting for the whole day'

The whole event went smoothly... With a few hiccups here and there... but we manage to pull it through... Thank you God... For making this event a smoothie... ROW comm members... we made it!!! All of our hard work are well paid off... Staffs... Thank you for your support in helping us... Volunteers... Without you, this event wont be possible...

Now, since its been done... its really a burden off my shoulder... Next event: Camp plus talent arena plus graduation

outings with genk

2008-08-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

So so sorry for the late updates. Been super duper busy these days. Quite a number of adhoc programmes that need to attend and stuff.

Yes noor, I promised to update you & here it is. On one of the weekends in July, me, Wid, Tin, Achid, Acap, Yasa & Sheffa went out together. Too bad you're not here with us. We had a marvelous time talking & gossiping bout you.

Acap was sharing his stories during his NS time. Then Achid said dat his bruder oso is in CD. Wid's also. While sharing, suddenly noor's name came about. Then while walking, we continued d talk about how would it be like if noor had to go NS. Will it be entertaining? Or will it be gory? We imagined noor in different2 uni... What if he has to be in the army? In police uni? What if he's d fire-fighter? We imagined noor clipping up his hair before able to fight d fire... That really made us laugh... He became the joke of the day...

Anyway, dont take things too seriously arh noor, later you might end up in ICU... huahuahuahua..

Then the next weekend, us gals went out to Kallang Leisure Park to bowl. The weather was nice. It was raining heavily while waiting for the rest to arrive. Then the signage said dat d feeder bus to dat shopping ctr is 11. Went to d bus stop n 20 minutes later, bus still not der yet. So we decided to take cab.

All of us were damn hungry and the very sad part is, the only place that we can eat was KFC. There's not McDonalds, no Long John Silvers, no Burger King and the foodcourt only serves their food. While eating, we were discussing on Plan B if we're unable to bowl.

After eating, we tried our luck. Too bad, the waiting list was sho damn freaking long, we decided to pass. The ice skating ring was full of foreign people (Yes, there's quite a number of Nihon-jin also) and the karaoke place was very eerie. Alas, all of us decided to go Bugis since its d next happening place in our list.

While walking out, we had alot of stories about our sweet memories with people who are not currently with us. Most of the genk members are busy with their own things... With werk, their own family commitments, then making time with their lurpe ones... Too many things to do... So little time. Can't even plan to have a holiday.

We all miss you man...

23rd bdae 2008

2008-07-07T21:15:00.002+08:00

just came back from camp n i'm damn tired. Too tired till i'm unable to sleep. Good thing i'm not werking tomorow. Can just sleep d whole day tomorow.

For 2008, i celebrated my bdae on d 1st day of CampVision. Kinda sad coz i'm unable to celebrate it with my lurpe ones but yet again... my own family hasnt been celebrating it for quite sumtime so wat d heck...

CampVision... Its an eye opener for me... Sum of the activities that they introduce to us was quite interesting... I was sent der as a volunteer which know nuts bout this camp and when I got der, I was given a task.... I was asked to be a programmer... Huahuahuahuahua...

First day, i was asked to do the water tower bucket... It was funny... but at the same time, its an eye opener as sumting happened with one of the groups.

Their ground rules was simple. It was punctuality, if you are late for the 1st time, everyone in your group, no matter if they came early, have to drop 5. If its your 2nd time, it will be 10 times... 3rd time will be 15 times and so on.

2nd rule was the no smoking rule. If you are caught smoking within the camp compound, you will b sent home straight.

3rd and last rule was respect. This was divided into 3. 1st was respect to the campsite. Littering was prohibited and to keep the place clean at all times. 2nd was to yourself. 3rd was to other campers. If anybody caught violating any of the above rules, they have to do a sharing session within their own group if its not that serious and if its very serious, dat person has to do a sharing session with all the groups there.

Back to the story. This particular group has a special person. She is abit slow and she prefer talking in Mandarin than in English so it was a bit challenging for us coz we have to wait for the translator to finish translating the game.

She's not the supporting type so when she feels like not doing anything, she will not do it. So for my station, she kept insisting she doesnt want to proceed and that would be dangerous to the team coz no points will be given unless all of their group member participate.

To make the story short, as the group was discussing on how to complete it, she was just sitting one corner and stare at the floor. When they wanted to do it, she insisted on not doing. We told them of the penalty and since most of the group members are youths, one was so fed up, he started yelling at her.

In this case, dat boy violated the 'respect for others' rule. When asked to do a sharing session with the group on y he yelled at her, he just came quite. The small group leader was the patience type, he pulled dat boy to another corner and explained his action.

While dat boy kena lecture, the other team members were trying to persuade her to do the game. Finally she agreed to do if its all gerls in her team. they changed strategies and last but not least, d group managed to proceed to the next round.

The volunteers, small group leaders, youth leaders, youth volunteers and the committee really made me feel very upset coz my volunteers are not the supportive type. I'm kinda jealous with their volunteers. How I wish I can get commited volunteers like them..

events... events... & sum more events

2008-06-30T12:12:00.002+08:00

yo~

Updating on a few events that might interest you. This 9th July, you are all invited to a conversation session @ NLB. Below are the details:

"On behalf of MENDAKI Club, I would like to invite you to our upcoming Conversations session entitled "Strategies For Success in the Profit and Non-Profit Sectors". Conversations is a regular series of informal sharing sessions hosted by speakers from diverse backgrounds. The series aims to provide a regular platform for members and friends to get together to discuss issues of interest affecting us and society.

This July 9th, we will be hosting Mr Zulkifli Baharudin, Managing Director of Global Business Integrators Pte Ltd, a company which is involved in logistics and supply chain activities across Indonesia and Indo-china through its subsidiaries, Indo-Trans Logistics and PT FSA. He is also the Executive Chairman of Communication Design International Ltd and Indo-Trans Logistics, Vice Chairman of Mentor Media Ltd, and Director of Visweswara Properties Pte Ltd.

Mr Zulkifli was formerly a Nominated Member of Parliament and Chairman of Mercy Relief. Presently, Mr Zulkifli sits on the board of the Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore, the National Volunteer & Philanthropy Centre and the Football Association of Singapore. He is also a member of the Board of Trustees of the Singapore Management University. Recently, Mr Zulkifli was appointed by the Government as Singapore's first Ambassador to the People's Democratic Republic of Algeria.

Details of the Conversations session are as follows :

Date:
Wednesday, 9th July 2008

Time:
7.00pm to 9.00pm

Venue:
National Library BoardImagination Room (Level 5)

Speaker:
Mr. Zulkifli BaharudinManaging DirectorGlobal Business Integrators Pte Ltd

To attend this session, kindly confirm your attendance either by:emailing your name, designation and contact number to mazlan@4pm.org.sg, orSMSing 94593414 with the following format: MCLUB .

If you have any queries, please contact us at 62426288. Feel free to pass the word around, or bring along a friend or colleague. We look forward to seeing you at this event!"

Here's another one. If you would like to pledge on becoming a blood donor but do not know where to go to, do come to our Mass Blood Donation Drive @ al-Iman Mosque on the 13th of July 2008, between 10am-4pm. Below are the details:

"Its a mass blood donation drive which is organized by all mosques in Singapore and is targeting to get 500 muslim blood pledges. Other than that, we also need 100 volunteers on that particular day to help out our guests alighting from buses and also during lunch time.We need your support in participate and pledge as blood donors during this event....

Sesape yg berminat, boleh larh hubungi Mazlan di 62426288 atau emel mazlan@4pm.org.sg untuk keterangan lanjut. "

2008-06-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

I AM TIRED... TIRED... AND VERY THE TIRED... can i just take a week off and rest @ home????

i wanna go out from singapore... i wanna see him... haiizzz.... :(

recap wat i have done for the last last week of my life....

My life now is all about meetings, meetings, reports, meetings, programs, meetings, printing letters, sending out letters, reports, meetings and more meetings....

Can i not go to any meetings ever again??? It is really taking a toll out of me... and i tink i'm kinda getting sick of going to meetings... memang betol arh sape ntah ckp... meeting is actually a group of people discussing and no decisions made... even if 1 decision has been made... its sumting very the extra ordinary... really mehx??? kalo tak de meeting langsong lagi bagos.. then i no need to go home very late n still have to reach d opis rite on time...

Never in my whole entire life dat i took 5 driving lessons in 3 days... until d intructor can see me from afar n shouted 'AWAK LAGIIIIIII' and told me this during the last lesson on friday nite: 'ari nie kite abish awal ok... kecian die... driving dr tgh hari td... kite pusing2 jek, abish kan 2 test routes then i drop u off to where your cousin is'... see... he can see my tiredness... tk pernah2 dja kat BBDC from 2pm til 11pm tau... 9 freaking long hours der... kalahkan nak pergi keje...

today i went to my sec sch wedding but missed seeing her coz she's @ d groom's side... her mummy said she's on d way but its almost 5pm n i dont i wanna sit der long.. d best ting is, i got a pair of fork & spoon as d berkat... cool rite...

met mummy, daddy n umi @ vivo coz mummy was lazy to cook today... went giant... met dis apek selling durian n as usual, whenever he sees mummy, he will say 'kak, meh larh beli durian... nak tutop kedai nie... nanti saye doakan kak murah rezeki'.. very funny arh d guy... actually, he's not dat very apek2 larh... he's quite young... around mid 30s... then his malay is very fluent... then mummy said she dont want... she walked away... then daddy came... he asked mummy wat dat apek said... then mummy said he wants to close shop so he's selling off his durian quite cheap.. then this conversation was happening between daddy n dat apek... last2... daddy won n he bought 10 packets of durians @ $10... we tot it was a very good deal but then i tot it was sumting fishy coz who would want to sell of 10 packets of very nice colored durian @ $10????

When we reached home, mummy was d first one to open up n ate d durian... she was speechless coz it was d very nice n cheapest durian she ever ate... then i came in... Got to tell all of you... it was d most delicious, nice and d best part is, d durian is quite big... d seed is damn small... i tell you, its really worth it... requested mummy to make bubur durian~~~~ cant wait to come home tomorow.... yiiiiiiiippppiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

ok... dats d end of my story... i just cant wait to pass my license n then i can just rest n start saving my $$$ for my japan trip...

til then... nite nite~~~

2008-05-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, i have the time to update my blog. Actually i'm on 2 days MC... Kena the flu bug n throat infection... hahahahahahaha... but good thing though, i got to rest for 4 whole days...

Went KL earlier this month... to my collegemate's wedding... Even though didnt get to go to the actual wedding (when we reached there, the nikah was done in d morning itself n the reception was on d next day), we get to see d bride and can see dat we really brighten up her day....

Talkin bout KL, i was kinda shocked to see pakcik shai n kak shikin @ our hotel room door on d 1st nite... but am very happy coz kinda miss them quite a bit... since we're not in d same office anymore... but to meet them at KL was really overwhelming.

Coming to 4months werking @4PM, i kinda miss alot of things... i miss my waking up late to werk, miss taking a short bus ride to werk, miss disturbing my cousin early in morning with me shouting 'morning' to her... miss my engineers... miss the unc @ d shop downstairs... miss going to store n disturbing pakcik shai n d geng... miss kak nora's delicious food... miss kak ju's joke... and the list can go on n on... not dat i'm complaining bout my new job... i luv my job... its just dat i dont have the same leisure time i have werking @ HP n @ my current werk place.

Anyway, pray for my success aite...

2008-03-30T00:29:00.004+08:00

woah... been quite sumtime since i last blogged. sho many things happened... sho many things to say... lets just recap wat had happened recently...

went out with kak aishah n d geng td... over dinner... supposedly... but then we just chill sumwhere i kinda dont remember d name... was it mandai sumthing sumting... oh well.. da lame tk kuar as a group... so met up @ yio chu kang @8pm, afiq picked us up n went der. nk kate dinner, tk de larh meal... just ate snacks, then kekek... as d closing ceremony, kite main lari2 from 1 lamp post to d other... sape menang jd org giller... sape last pon org giller... n guess who won? who lost? *points afiq & kak aishah*

as of today, 30.Mar.08, it has been my 41st day with 4PM... am sho happy n glad dat i made dis move of changing company. Yesterday nite, had an appreciation dinner @ Bum Bu Restaurant @ Kandahar street in d event of our 60th anniversay charity dinner... D food is a fusion of Thai & Indonesion cuisine & d setting is very very d antique one. But from my observation, its actually ala2 Baba... Nice to have a gathering der. d food is actually nice. 1st time tasted d 'pomelo salad'. shedap... very very different. nanti kite makan larh sesame kat situ k... tk kesah larh ngan sape...

oh yarh, I GOT AN AUTOGRAPHED PIX WITH D PM!!!!!!! BEST KAN!!!!!!!! mcm rase amat bertuah sungguh. yo people out der... JANGAN JELES YE~~~!!!! ^_^v

now, i've got a new goal in my life, dat is to earn my 1st million dollar before i reach 30... smue org ckp its impossible. please... tk mo pikir negatif... mesti bg kite peluang utk menunjukkan bahwasanya kite mampu melakukannye... belum cuba belum tau... seperti pepatah melayu berkata 'nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih'. Jadi sekarang kite tunggu dan lihat ye... i got 7 years to prove it...

sebelum mengundurkan diri saya pada malam ini, ingin saya mengambil kesempatan ini untuk mengumumkan bahawa pada tanggal 19-20 april, 4PM akan mengadakan mengayuh basikal sepanjang malam. Tema pada program itu adalah ala2 'amazing race'. Sekiranya anda berminat untuk menjadi fasilitator atau sebagai pengayuh keselamatan, sila hubungi saya di talian 62426288 atau khadijah@4pm.org.sg. Kedatangan anda amat dialu2kan.

Cey badak... how's my malay? very d proper rite~~~ huahuahuahua... anyway, its real. bukan tipu. do get back to me if ure really interested. if ure unable to cycle but still wanna help, no worries. will have other things dat ure able to help us with.

till then,

OYASUMI NASAI~~~~~~~

last day of werk

2008-02-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

Finally, d day came... 04.Feb.08... Marked my last day as a werker in SC. Was kinda sad and happy... why??? sad as to leave all of my beloved colleagues... happy as im finally gonna do wat i really really want which is counselling...

I was actually geared up for my last day. cant even sleep thru out d nite. cooked spaghetti for them, brought my cammie with 1gb sd card but alas, didnt even take a single photo. Damn stoopid if u asked me coz d cammie was in my bag all d time. i just kinda forgotten to use it.

Anyway, had dinner with kak aishah, kak shikin n pakcik shai, kinda like d last time as colleagues. It was fun. Hopefully will still keep incontact with 'em... have dinner together or even a game or two of bowling like how we did when we're still colleagues.

last but not least, now dat i'm gone, will dey miss me?

2007-12-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

hi all,

wanna say dat i'm not goin to d JB trip. Please have fun without me

outing with noor suria

2007-11-13T22:35:00.001+08:00

Last saturday, went out with noor for the last time before he went back Egypt after werk. Was kinda sad though coz we made a pact. He wont be coming back to spore till he finishes his degree, which is around 2 years if he does well. Gonna mish him.

anyway, aku nk wat pact gak. later on bile ko da blk, insya allah in 2 yrs time, u bring back ur cert n i will be doing very well in my career. how does dat sound? anyway, dis is all d pix i have with him. nnti kite amek gamba sesame lg k

my 2nd attempt: Strawberry Cheesecake

2007-11-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

yatta... my 2nd attempt to make cheesecake. And its strawberry cheesecake. My 1st attempt was chocolate cheesecake but it failed. Was really sad and was kinda feeling guilty to make all of them eat it. Sowie people. Am very very very excited but am not sure whether its a success or not but so far so good. It turned out nice.

Lets just pray that its a success. If it is, then will be baking it more often in d future. Will put in the recipe in d next update if its a success. Will bring 1 to werk and d other 1 for home. Tomorow will have a few judges to taste it. Lets just pray hard dat they're gonna be fine and no stomach-aches please.

SELAMAT'S bdae~~~

2007-10-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

24.Oct.07

Took 1/2 day leave... mmm... was making rash decision but then, it was worth it. y? its bcoz i finally get to send off my dear fren. Its been a few years since i last saw her n went i get to noe, dat morning dat she's taking d 6pm flight back to egypt, took urgent leave just to send her off...

Meet Rashid & Noor @ Orchard (dont remember y need to meet them there), had lunch n went to the airport. After all d crying n waving goodbye to them (actually there was a few more who went back), went to Sultan Mosque to meet d rest of d genk n did our maghrib prayers. Went to eat @ magic wok with 'em to celebrate selamat's 23 bdae. お誕生日お目でとございます。。。(it says 'otanjoubi omedeto gozaimasu' which means 'happy bdae' in japanese')

Enjoy the pix ne~ *winks*

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI~~~

2007-10-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

YOHA PEOPLE~~~

How r u all doing? Its been quite sometime since I last blogged... Actually wanna update on a few outings...

1st of all... Today's d 2nd day of raya.... Too bad aniki had to werk on 1st day of raya... even today oso... (laughing d evil laughter)... Wanna dedicate this to him...

mummy, daddy, umi n noor on 1st day of raya... while waiting 4 d bus (w/o aniki)

cute couple rite~~~ *winks*

sista pawaaaaa~~~

After d prayers... Another shot taken @ d bus stop

w/0 me in it

went to aunty hse @ tanglin halt green... coz grandpa is there.... the hse is just packo with just us n d children...

Noor with Aish Ukail

Umi & Noor with d niece & nephews

4 generations all together

daddy with his kiddo bro

with 2 very KEPO boys

showing their CHEEKY side with mummy

*** continued version...

04.Oct.07

Celebrated kak aishah's 29th bdae at eatz19. Everybody forgotten to bring cammie... But good thing afiq's there to save the day... Below are the pix:

18.Sept.07

Celebrated Khairi's 21st bdae @ his home... His mom cooked really really nice food... Enjoy the pix below~

2007-09-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

maybe i should just say my insecurities here... I donno.. Maybe it can help?

People come n go in our lives. Be it of good or bad reasons... Yarh, cant deny d fact dat one of my frens just walked out on us coz of something stoopid... & they also change... for better or for worst? Saa... nobody noes coz nothing is stagnant and unpredictable...

Maybe i'm just selfish... I just want the people who i care n love most to be near me all d time... I want it to be like how it is... Its not dat I don wanna let 'em go... maybe i've forgotten dat people oso need their own space and have time alone on their own...

wat r ur definition of frens? frens who are very close to you and have that speacial place in your heart...? for me... its like i wanna laugh with u when ure happy... Wanna cry with you when ure sad... wanna share ur burden when ure having problems... to be always there for you if u ever need a listening ear...

I think I really need to get this thing out of my chest...

There are times when some people will take the option of walking away everytime a problem occurs between them. Why should you choose that option when you can actually talk bout it and settle it there and then? Do you think that everytime you do that, your problems will automatically solve by itself? I noe, your reason will be 'its better to let go earlier so as not to make me & the other party suffer'... Then, can I ask you this question... Of all the things dat you've shared... For all the things that you've been thru together... Dont all of this actually means anything to you? For me, ure just a scardy cat... you are running away from your problems instead of solving it. Rather than the thing is a small issue, it can turn into a major one...

I noe I'm not perfect... Who am I to say all these... I'm sorry people if you get offended by my werds but then, isnt it better to talk bout it rather than keeping it locked inside?

I've once asked this que to some people so i'm asking to those who are reading this post to just think it over.

If lets say anything bad to your close ones, will you still stand by their side or you will just walk away? Family members, yarh... you have to be there no matter what... but for your frens? Would you be there if they need you? Would you want to cry with them if they're sad? Would you want to share & lighten up their burden? Would you lend a listening ear if they need someone to talk to or to ask for a second opinion?

Please cherish your frens as how u cherish yourself. You're gonna regret it if one fine day, they're just gonna dissappear from your life and ure not able to say how much dat person means to u... and that is wat will always happen...

Waseda Shibuya Senior High Open Hse

2007-09-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

Yo minna~~

On last Sunday, went to Waseda Shibuya Senior High's Open House~~~ Had a very fun day... Kinda have nosebleed seeing all those cute guys & gals in yukata.... Please enjoy the photos below:

I WAS IN D TEA CEREMONY FOR THE 1ST TIME!!! Kinda sad coz didnt get to drink d tea & eat d mochi!!! All the students were so poise & elegant!!! Sho damn jealous of 'em...

People can actually wear their sch uniforms!!! i'm jealous of Noor as he got to wear 'em. Too bad for Rashid though. D uniforms were kinda small...

Tanoshikatta desu~~~ Nanka hontou ni shiawase...

my xciting sunday

2007-09-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

today... i went to watch No Reservation starring Catherine Zeta Jones... Nice story line... I think i shed a tear or two during d show with Fana... spent half of my sunday with her today...

After movie, went to eat to Cavana @ marina square... While eating, talked quite alot bout our schmates... exchanged with each other bout d latest gossips... then by 7pm we went home...

Yesterday, went out with genk... Finally, after sho many months... Was very happy to meet n chill with them. took alot of photos...

overall.. did had quite alot of fun... donno when will be going out with them again... Hopefully it will be soon... as fasting month will be just around d corner...

from left: rashid, selamat, zahrah, widya, achid, tiin trying to hit noor suria's head & me @ Suntec City

me n my sch frens

2007-09-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

Last sunday, went out with afew old frens since sec sch... Its been quite sometime since i last saw them... one of them was like 2 yrs ago... really really miss d time when we were still in sch... us kinda rule d sch when we're in our senior yr...

went to see Mus n her daughter... presenting Fatimah Az-Zahra... this should be d spelling... sowie Mus if i spelt her name wrongly...

chatted for 2hrs with her... Really missed talking to her... Was quite happy when i got to noe dat she is still d same old Mus dat i got to be close with since Sec 1... Was telling her mum-in-law dat me n her was in d same class since Pri 1 till Sec 4 except for Sec 2, but we only got close to each other when we were in Sec 1... she told us dat she passed her 4th yr in Azhar... Alhamdulillah... Not alot of people get to pass d final yr in their 1st attempt... She's really a very lucky gal...

After zuhor, went to Noran's place... which is very near to Mus' in-laws... She did a lil 'kenduri cukur rambot' for her son, Muhd Hirzi Hadi...

From left: Aishah, me, Noran with Hadi, Yana & Nadia

After dat... went to Causway point to kill time... Aishah was in a rush to go home... so left me, yana n nadia...

While window shopping with them, suddenly something struck my mind...

- d continuation -

wat if its me who is going thru all that... like having to noe someone, then got close to dat someone, then become my boifren... then got up another level, i got enganged... then things werk out, i got married.. then finally got a baby.... a complete family...

can you imagine, @ 22, they already have babies... whereas me, 22, still single, no boifren watsover & am enjoying my life. I donno... I just cant foresee myself going thru all that in d next 5 yrs time...

Scared? Maybe... Past past experiences made me scared... Maybe i'm not strong enough?

my crave~

2007-08-25T18:22:00.000+08:00

yo~

just came back... yarh... came back quite early... khairi needs to go to a tahlil session @ Lorong Ah Soo which will start after asar... since nothing much to do, we went home straight... For the 1st time, I walked home from the MRT station which took me 25minutes....

After sho many weeks of craving, i finally get to eat d chocolate indulgence cake from Secret Recipe... after sho many many many months of heartaches (from Kelantan, KL & JB, everytime they will put in d menu dat its not available), i finally get to eat d chicken cordon bleu there!!!~~~ yippie ~~~

didnt take any pix for today's outing. i kinda forgot to bring my cammie....

even though today's outing was a short one, enjoyed it...

this is how i am now:

^___________________________^ v

- in a very good mood -

2007-08-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

now its 08.30pm & am @ home... yeah... didnt go n hang out @ our port... afiq's tired... oh well... might as well update my blog...

last sat, 18.Aug.07, one of my classmate got married. Last time during primary sch days, we used to be quite close. She was a crybaby... Remembered how she can cry really badly even though d teacher was just calling her name, wanted to ask her to read a paragraph from d text book infront of d class... N guess wat, dat crybaby is now married... I noe I will pray for ur happiness...

Met a few long lost frens... afew of them, d last time i saw them was during our graduation ceremony which was like in Jan'02...

- who's d next one to get married? -

bored

2007-08-21T12:54:00.000+08:00

its 12.45pm @ werk n i got nothing much to do. Woke up with no voice... My throat is killing me... Cant talk much... Been drinking donno how many bottles of plain water... Been to d toilet oso donno how many times oredi... Finished kinda all of my werk... No follow ups to do as the webpage is down...

Yay... later gonna chill @ our port... Just waiting for confirmation from Afiq... Hopefully its confirmed... Kak cant make it... has alot of errands to do...

Now, waiting for the clock to turn 1pm... then can go for my lunch.

- in a crappy mode -

KL trip

2007-08-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

As usual, my updates will be abit late... Just dont have d time to sit @ my pc n to update watever outings dat i've been to...

08.Aug.07, went out with a few ex-classmates... 3 of them (Sabrina, Maya & Didi) just finished their studies from Azhar, another 5 of us (Me, Fana, Fiza, Mujtahida & Suaida) are werking oredi... Had a nice time... as its been afew years since i last saw them. Took afew photos with em... pls enjoy~

During dinner

While taking a stroll on the way to esplanade

-Sabrina, Farhana, me, Fiza, Maya, Suaida & didi -

10-13 Aug, went to KL... Had fun... Didnt managed to see Iqbal thought. Last minute he had to go to Kelantan with regards to his thesis.... Oh well... No choice...

Kak Aishah has updated d outing. For the pix, pls go to her blog. Kinda lazy to update it...

Today, after werk, went to see d firewerks @... erm... near the merlion, which is @ d opposite side of esplanade with Khairi only... Yeah... Khairi... w/o kak aishah n afiq... i've heeded afiq's advice... so please... be proud of me...

Another classmate of mine during alsagoff days is getting married later... Moga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat... Amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnn~~~

Us during checking out from d hotel

another update

2007-08-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

I lost another uncle on Monday, to some cronic disease. Mummy said he got all d international illness. Aunt said dat he was actually gone @ 9am but as he was on d life-support equipment, its d machine dat kept him moving. not him. Noor was there to see d docs shut off d equipment n see his heartbeat went down to zero. I was there to see him during d final sent off.

How helpless we can be when we're dead... on how we have to depend on others... On how pitiful d widows will be when their husbands are dead... be it young or old... children will be fatherless... If the children are old enough to take care of themselves, should be no issue... but if they're still small kids? Its really heartbreaking to imagine all these scenarios...

Suddenly, I felt like telling everyone dat i lurpe them n i sent dis msg to most of d people in my contact list: "LUV U! Muackx"

The replies dat i received:

Aeash: 'dja? ko salah antar ke?'

Peichi: 'Wow... That was weird... Haha.. Did you message the wrong person?'

Khairi: 'Woah ~ @>/-lurp u too. Hehe'

Kak Ima: 'Luv u 2 deq'

Kak Aishah: 'Huh??'

Mama Dyne: 'Wei... Luv sape plak nie... Da ade pakwe eh.. tk blg pn.. hehe.. ;-)'

Liyana: 'Luv u 2! Ngigau ke mimpi ko nie?! ;)'

Azliyana: 'Djah, knp ko msg aku muak pulak x pasal2?'

Noor Suria: 'Giler eh?! '

Asura: 'Huh? Wads up with tat sms?'

Rashid: 'Aiyo salah msg eh? Ade bf eh. Haha'

Paman adi: 'Luv u! Muackx <--- apahal ni? pagi2 buta muack2. da brus gigi lom'

Widya: 'Dja! pe cte?'

I'm just happy n blessed that I have all these people... even the ones who didnt reply... maybe they tot dat i sent d sms wrongly... n i wonder, will they ever miss me when i'm gone?

2007-07-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

today, was a cloudy sunday. finally get to wake up quite late after waking up early for d past few months... did my ironing... didnt noe dat i got quite a no of clothes not ironed yet... went to tekkashimaya with mummy to buy d groceries... then had dinner @ KTM with daddy n umi...

Yesterday was a fun day but d idea of werking on Saturday is damn boring. How to lighten up d mood? The gals brought vcds to werk, watched 'talking cock', which i personally think dat its a boring movie, overall ratings.... then took alot of pix... with our product specialist n all... sho yesterday's saturday shift was not dat bad... then went to KK to see my sec schmate... she just gave birth to a very handsome Hadi...

he's still a few hours old during dis pic

she just don wanna let go off Hadi.. poor Hadi

Friday, went to buy d tix for our KL trip. Walked all d way from beach road to City hall... Cool rite... *winks*

Oh yarh, last sunday, had my final inter 4... didnt do well.. need to take a retest... still unable to call bunka for d timing... then after dat... went to watch transformers @ TB... after maghrib, went bowling @ safra mount faber... i think i kinda did well... but then, looking @ coach, he said still can improve better... Played 3 games. 1st game was 99, then 2nd game was 104. 3rd game was 109... I think i agree with kak aishah... playing bowling can really release ur stress by imagining all of d pins are ur cust/person u hate most n then u hafta aim ur ball to knock down all of them... once uve scored a strike, u kinda feel better... think dats wat i'm gonna do d next session. 28th coach wont be around coz he got duty... maybe we'll be playing better w/o him... who noes...

but mr coach, if u ever gonna read dis post... please do take note dat we're still gonna play on ur behalf... even though we sucks... but then i think i can just imagine u, standing behind, doing those weird faces n saying 'where's ur aiM? how come ur hand still not straight?' n bla... bla... bla... dont worry... compare to ur games n our games, we still have a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way to go~ *winks*

actually still got alot of things to talk about... but then, my hands are kinda tired oredi n i think i need to sleep earlier...

Achid, noor n rashid - thanx alot for d pressies... luv 'em sho much... i noe, by giving me those gifts, ure expecting something rite... haha haha... noe bout it oredi... will try to bake n cook something for u all when i really really really got d time k darlings~

kak aishah n afiq - both of u r my sweet hearts... thanx for being there when i really needed someone... thanx for all d advice n naggings... i'm really blessed to get to noe n get close to both of u...

my bdae

2007-07-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

my 22nd bdae just ended a few minutes ago. I'm officially 22 oredi... oh gosh... quite old oredi...

if people are gonna ask me how i celebrated my bdae dis year, its kinda long so please bear with it....

04.July.07

went to werk as usual. kak aishah wasnt there... need to run some errand... was told dat she's gonna meet her ITE galfren n will b having lunch together... Fair enough... told me will be meeting me later after werk @ Sultan...

was texting Afiq in d afternoon... he told me dat kak aishah didnt say to him anything bout goin out together... he had a soccer match @ 5pm... he said sowie cant make it... i said ok

proceed there, ALONE... went to d my prayers... then while waiting for her, saw dis cute boy playing with a paper ball... yarh.. PAPER... it made those weird noises but it was cute... then kak aishah approached me with kak ima..

kak aishah told me dat her stomach was aching... then while sitting infront of dis shop which i forgotten d name, afiq, khairi n piee just jumped rite up to me... out of nowhere...

I was sho shocked dat i was coughin all d way....

Ate dinner @ al-sheikh (if i'm not wrong larh)... was forced to smoke shisha... overall... d outing was fun...

Reached home around 12plus... noor was alseep oredi... umi was lying on d bed, not moving... she was having cramps... 1st day... then suddenly noor woke up... then she pass me a very nice brown paper bag... mummy suddenly came up to me n sang d bdae song... i'm sho touched... i got a brown handbag (yarh... they actually bought me a handbag) n a very nice wallet... will update d pix of d pressies dat ive gotten...

05.July.07

Ok, the actual day... when to werk, as per normal... got alot of best wishes... Kyla made for me the stars n crane origami... she said dat it represent love, hope n peace... if i'm not mistaken...

after lunch, my desk was in a mess.. saw a big yellow envelope with my name written on it... had a lil pouch inside... sho cute... now i put in my werking pass...

in midst of cleaning up my desk, i saw something unfamiliar... its actually a haagen dazs voucher... with another bdae care... was sho shocked... was from my agent gals... hahahahah... luv them alot too~~

last but not least... i spent d last few hours of my remaining bdae goin up to a very close fren's werking place~~~

wat a nice way to celebrate my 22nd bdae rite... enjoy d pix below~

jap class. unc. central shopping ctr. 01.July.07

2007-07-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

went to class... got my mid term test... confirmed i flunked it. got 40/100. kena scold with sensei... then i have to score at least 80 marks for my finals. if not, unable to get my cert... oh gosh...

anyway, met my unc~~ walked all d way to central from achid's shop. after maghrib went back to bugis as need to buy noor's files... lepak kejab then sent me home with his vespa~~~ sho damn happy...

achid.unc.me

its Monday oredi, 02.July.07. just cant wait till thurs... till then... me wanna go n sleep now... take care people. luv ya all~~ muackx~~

bored @ werk

2007-06-30T11:35:00.000+08:00

お早う　みんあ～～～

i'm damn bored here at werk as nothing much to do. no mood to do my warranty updates... no quotation to be updated... i'm damn sleepy but cant sleep... got dis stoooopid fire alarm testing dat kept playing celine dion titanic song n those oldies songs... oh gosh... help me!!!

oh yeah... meeting them later after werk... gonna take my midterm today @ 3pm... oh gosh... my heart is beating very very fast... hopefully i can do it... good thing i brought my books to werk today...

now, i think i better do my revision... gonna update again later...

sistas poweeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrr~~~

a very memorable day

2007-06-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

ok... gonna talk bout something that really really touches my heart...

16.June.07... supposedly going out for a picnic b4 going for bowling as usual @ 8pm... sho d plan was to pick up everyone, lastly will be me n umi, then proceed to Temenggong b4 goin to marina park. Since it was raining heavily, they're still deciding on wat to do sho afiq suggested to pick us all up then will decide to go where n do wat...

**************************************

Kak Aishah suddenly texted saying she's not gonna join us due to her gastric prob. I was quite sad larh in d 1st place then wat to do... Since she's sick, takkan larh nk drag die all around...

supposedly afiq had to pick us up by 12pm... both me n umi were ready... then we waited. Checked the newspaper, Zuhor will be @ 1.07pm. Just nice. will pray 1st then will wear d tudong later. Was having a very bad feeling donno bout wat sho i texted afiq & khairi. khairi texted back saying tayar pancit. Will be abit late. otw to fetch piee oredi... time check, it was 1.40pm oredi.

@2pm. Khairi called saying they're downstairs oredi... to come down now... when i reached downstairs, all of them were outside d car. tot something was a bit strange. i just kept quiet. d boys were smoking. understandable. something caught my eyes... an oven, was laying there... a brand new one. i was like 'eh, who's oven is dis?' they're like 'donno. its been there when we reached here' me was like *looking right... looking left...* 'memandangkan tk de org punye, ape kate kite pikul n bwk blk... since d lift is there oredi'... then kak ima said, 'g tgk kreta kejab' i walked over n was surprised by *jeng jeng jeng* d very 'beloved' kak aishah... then she said something dat really made me teary

'adik... surprise... dat oven is yours'

ok people, i know i havent thanked u all properly... I just wanna say 'thank u very very very very much' no words or action can express my gratitude towards u all... yarh, like kak aishah said, maybe i'm too naive to actually believe every single word dat u guys said to me but hey, dats me... but dat act really caught me off guard... good thing i have a steady heart... if not, think i'm gonna have a major heart attack then...

ok... no pix update coz most of d pix are with kak aishah... will do another post for this outing.. with d pix n all...

till then... luv u all~~~ muackx~~~

ーーー　家族です　ーーー

bowling, again~~~

2007-06-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

Date: 09.June.07. People: Me, Ummi, Kak Aishah, Afiq & Khairi. Place: Somewhere bet Bugis & Textile Ctr. THEME: BROWN & HOT PINK

Was working dat particular day. Mind was not @ work but somehow rather was with d guys as was very damn xcited to bowl n meet up with them, again.

Met achid 1st coz didnt went to my Jap class d last Sunday. Woke up late. Then met kak aishah n umi... Khairi was late coz he had a floorball match @ his JC. Waiting for afiq, then proceed to have my lunch plus dinner @ LJS while waiting for khairi. He was still late. then we proceed to Sultan to do our Asar prayers.

For the 1st time, took purikura with the boys... It was very funny... Took 2 times as we forgotten to choose the pix for d 1st time round... It was 7.15pm n we're still @ bugis junction. Our booking was @ 8pm... dgn lincah nye kite berlari (mcm je arh) ke Sultan, did our Maghrib prayers n had asked d boys to proceed w/o us 1st as we're a bit late?

IT WAS D MOST WORST GAME I EVER PLAYED!!!! like all of them said, 'not everyday is a Sunday'... yarh... yarh... yarh... understand... yoku ganbarimasu~ Will try harder d next time round

a trip to d zoo~~~

2007-06-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

Date: 06.June.07. People: Me, Afiq, Kak Aishah, Umi & Khairi.

Finally, we went to d zoo... Meet a lot of our old frens... like the orang utan, zebra, giraffe... n others... Took quite alot of pix there... Enjoy d pix below:

While waiting for d bus dat comes only every an hour

Finally in d bus oredi. Afiq's having major stomache.. hihi ^_^

As usual, me n kak aishah

Khairi.Umi.Kak Aishah.Afiq

Khairi.Me.Kak Aishah.Afiq

Kak Aishah's gonna be shipped to Australia

Taking a break in d hot weather. D green tea bottled drink was $2.90. Damn ex!!!

Ummi's trying to be one of them

Kak Aishah sempat tido sey

Afiq is being d honorable person who swears n needs to pay d 50cents fine per word...

Kak Aishah & Ummi in d ladies

Us gals

While waitin 4 d polar bear to come out, Afiq is d only one who poses for d cammie

them with d zebras

Afiq with his fav animal... naaaaaaaaaaaaahhh... made it up~~

cool horse carriage rite??? n guy who's d driver is quite cute looking *winks*

mmm... going trecking arh?

In d snake thingy

Playing hide & seek in d flower thingy

Nice ritee????

Them with Kak Aishah's fav monkey... *winks*

Us infront of d nice water thingy

theme: not to look @ d cammie

Afiq & Khairi trying to do d jump thingy

another posing @ d scenic place

They're trying to jump

Show me ur spirit of happiness people~~

Erm... r u washing ur hands there? there's a tap just round d corner with soap some more

Afiq was trying to jump to d other side but was scolded by sis... Sowie /^_^

After a hectic day in d zoo, when to kak aishah's aunt place to do our prayers n oso coz some one was craving to eat arnold's. Had to wait for quite sometime as it was full house n met a few of our colleagues there.

Only got to take 1 pic with d lil gals...

Will update on d next outing soon~~~ till then... LUV YA ALLL~~~~ muackx~

our lil outings~

2007-06-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

currently, in a very xcited mood. wanna noe why??? TOMOROW, after work, GOIN TO BOWL, AGAIN~~~

now, its like a daily routine of playing bowling... ever since we have bowler in d family *points @ afiq* all of us are just excited and geared up to play bowling even better...

Date: 02.June.07. People: Me, Afiq, Kak Aishah, Umi & Khairi. Place: Tamp & Superbowl@ Textile Ctr & Raffles Hospital.

Actually, went to my sec sch's wedding b4 we bowl. I expected to see alot of my frens... But when I was there, the only familiar faces was Ummi, her fren Juwai n d bride herself... Donno where d hell r d rest of d gals...

Anyway, during dis outing, Afiq was d star of d show... can see how many pix we took of him... Am grateful to him as becoz of him, all of us bowl better... can look @ d score... For once, I'm able to reach 100 marks in a game... Even though didnt get any for this game, i'm contented... at least when i bowl, my hands aint aching anymore... Just have to stay focus n not to look @ d pins when releasing the ball... I will remember ne sensei~~~

Had a bowl of a time... Cant wait for tomorow... Coz....

WE'RE GONNA BOWL AGAIN~~~

~~~ YAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY~~~

picnic

2007-05-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

Date: 20.May.07. Place: Marina City Park. People: Me, Afiq, Khairi, Piee, Kak Aishah, Kak Imah, Achid, Tiin & Widya.

Had our 1st picnic outing. Had alot of fun. Had our intermediate 3 finals in d morning but coz of this outing, was sho damn excited dat I didnt study... Good thing i passed...

Was supposes to meet @ 2pm @ marina bay mrt station. Was late as we tot dat we missed out on a few things which made me n achid went to PS to buy late minute stuffs. Reached there around 2.40pm.

All of them were there oredi. Got scolded by sis but yes, I know its my fault sho I just kept quiet. Really had alot of fun there. The place was spacious enough for us to do all sorts of things. We played kite, frisbee, but most of d time played frisbee.

Good thing it didnt rained on dat particular day. Around 6plus, achid, tiin n wid went home whereas d rest of us proceed with bowling.

Wanna tell you all... Now, my bowling skill is getting better... YAY... Hamdan lillah... All thanx to my coach, afiq.. hehehehehe... Played 3 games. 1st game I scored 86, 2nd game, 101 & d last game was 108.

That day was the most enjoyable outing ever... Noor Suria, if ever u read this post, pls dont be jealous. I promise you dat we will bring you to these places once u come back k bebeh...

luv ya afiq~

2007-05-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

Date: 12.May.07. Place: Giro bench, somewhere infront of d Maybank building, Marina Square & breeks. People: Me, Kak Aishah, Kak Ima, Afiq, Khairi.

On dat day, alot of happy things happened. @ 1st, my nichan dropped by. Its been quite sometime since he started working @ apple oredi n was damn happy dat he's happier there. He's getting more handsome now. Liked his new hairstyle.

After work, met d rest @ cityhall mrt station. Since d movie will start @ 7.30pm, went to maulana to perform our asar prayers. Tot of walking to marina square but it suddenly raining heavily. Had fun running in d rain...

To kill time, we just sat outside @ d lounge till its time. Watched 'jangan pandang belakang'. its a very crappy movie.

After dat, afiq treated us dinner. ~~~LUV U SHO SHO MUCH AFIQ~~~

late lunch @ popeye's & bowling session

2007-05-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

had promised mummy to accompany her to go tekkashima to buy toiletries n groceries since last week but was not able to due to certain circumstances which i dont remember wat. Anyway, after dat, met them @ 4plus @ city hall mrt n proceed to Airport to had our late lunch cum dinner.

Date: 05.May.07. People: Me, Kak Aishah, Ummi, Afiq, Khairi, Noor & Ni. Place: Popeye's @ T1, viewing gallery, Super Bowl @ Textile Ctr.

After we had our lunch, we wanted to have our desserts @ swensen's but it was too jam packed. Since we can just go to swensen's anytime, someone suggested we go bowl... Kinda not remembered who suggested it. It was going 8.10pm if not mistaken, we made d decision to just proceed with bowling. As always, Afiq topped with a total of 409, followed by me (285), kak ecah (176), khairi (152), noor (151), Ni (128) n umi was last with only 54...

karaoke @ apollo ctr

2007-05-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

today, since i'm not working, hopefully is able to post all of the previous outings dat I didnt get to blog due to no time...

13-15 April went to KL... the previous 2 posts was the KL trip post... Below will start the updates:

1st May, Labor day... Went karaoke... The People: Me, Kak Aishah, Kak Ima, Afiq, Khairi, Umi & Achid. Place: Lucky Plaza, along Orchard Road, Apollo Ctr (Family cash box)

Oh by d way, Afiq sprained his ankle d day b4... But then, he still forced himself to go out with us... Really take off my hat off him for this~~~ Lets all of us cheer for him... HIPPE HIPPE HOOOOORRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY~~~~~

Stayed til 10.30pm only coz ummi got sch d following morning. Had alot of fun...

luv ya~

2007-05-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

hello people... need to say a few things off my chest...

i'm very very very much in love with the people who is currently very very very very close to me now... u know who i mean...

Ok, if you think dat i've never blogged bout u is becoz I never think or remember bout u... ure wrong... like mummy, after every prayers, i've never forgotten to say a lil prayer for u, n oso who's very close to me in my heart...

kinda affected by wat u've said earlier... But hey, ure my sis... no matter wat happen, u'll always have a special place in my heart, along with my other sisters... ok?

ありがとうね。。。

2007-05-19T01:17:00.000+08:00

BTW, thanx to u khairi, the KL trip post, took sho long to upload all bcoz of you suggesting me to use photobucket to upload d pix... Should have just used d normal slide tool thingy to upload the pix... People out there, pls do not use photobucket unless u got only a few pix to be uploaded. If not, better use d normal slides thingy... At least they will resize d pix automatically n a got a few templates to choose from.

lastly,

お休みなさいみんあ～～

KL TRIP~~~

2007-05-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

oh~ i'm very uber xcited to tell bout d KL trip. sho damn happy... after how many years since i last saw him, finally get to meet him... pls enjoy the pix below~~~

Place: in the bus (ngah otw g KL). People: Me, Afiq, Khairi, Kak Ima & Kak Aishah.

The bus dat brought us safely n comfortably to KL. Transtar 1st class...

The 'mascot-to-be' for transtar.

'cubelah transtar... confirm tk rugi nye'

'hehehe... sebenarnye, ini 1st time... no comments ye'

abg macho

"Thank you for choosing transtar. My name is Aishah n I will your personal attendant for today"

look how cozy d boys are

all of us are all geared up n ready to go~~~

coz its very comfy, can sleep while smiling~~

"I think I left my blankie behind... huhuhuhu"

K, finally reached Nova Hotel. Took some photos while waiting to be checked in.

Liked the red spiral sofa... The aircon is damn nice...

"me: psst... can we go up now? kak aishah: wait larh... ngah posing nie"

After throwing our luggage @ our hotel rooms, we proceed with our 1st round of shopping.

We went all over the place. Went to do our 1st round of shopping @ masjid India, went to eat lunch @ BK (mcm larh kt spore tk de *giggles*), walked all the way to Central Market. It was raining heavily. Afiq & Khairi bought some souveniers for ummi, we befriended with the batik guy... After the rain stopped, we proceed to Petaling street to do our 2nd round of shopping.

Bought 2 polo tees for aniki (lime green & baby pink). Oso bought 1 for noor (orange). After dat, went back to our hotel, took our bath n played afew rounds of snap. A few hours later, all of us are in dreamland.

.::2nd day::.

All of us were sho xcited to eat @ A&W... Woke up early just to eat breakfast there. Us kiddos are all set n ready to go:

Finally, we reached KLCC & was sho damn happy to be seated n eating A&W

After that, went back to our hotel rooms n slept for a bit. While waiting for the guest of honor to come, took somemore pix:

Finally, he came @ 9pm & we proceed with our dinner. Ate dinner @ dis chicken rice shop near bukit bintang plaza. While eating, got a live band playin. Kinda enjoyed our dinner more. @ our dining table:

After dinner, we walked d whole KL... (actually not... just walked from bukit bintang till zouk, then took LRT @ bukit nenas if i'm not mistaken).

nice~

d twin towers from afar

khairi with d twin towers

groupie minus me

d guys

hehehehe *blush*

tk masok, amek gamba kt luar pon jd larh~

Iqbal's 1st time taking d LRT

afiq.khairi.iqbal

Back @ our hotel... Played snap again for a few rounds b4 Iqbal gone off to another location to meet his other frens...

afiq's most lucky sitting position

'yey... gonna win dis game'

Nie lg sorang mamat yg main snap tersenyom2

"hopefully gonna win d next game..."

'eh, d cards nmpk lain macam aje'

groupie while playing snap

sparkling juice+pringles=our own indoor party~~

groupie in d lift yg tk menjadi

groupie 1

groupie 2 (pls spot d diff bet dis pic n above pic)

who's d odd one???

The day to go back to spore came... Inside me said: "dont wanna go home... dont wanna... wanna still stay here" Dragged my feet to the bus station. We wanted to have a late check out but was not approved. Had to check out latest by 1pm... Haaizz... Last pix in KL b4 we went back:

aniki no otanjoubi

2007-04-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

yo minna... its me again... anyway, wanna tell story bout aniki's otanjoubi... its on 8th April... this year, he's 25 oredi... 1/4 of a century oredi... got a stable job (hope so) n quite an interesting gf. Still waiting when he's gonna get married... daddy got married at his age... shouldnt put pressure on him. but then, really like to tease him bout this... then he'll get all blush n shy... sho cute...

@ 1st, the original plan was to go zoo. aniki was very very xcited. then mummy said she don wan. kinda fight on where to go. Even in d car. last alternative, someone suggested changi airport. went to sit @ popeyes, all is against on eating there. finally, celebrated his bdae @ swensen's T1. The pix are quite blurred though.

The morale of the story is: We had fun, as a family as its been quite sometime since we last did it. Aniki was always don wanna follow us. Noor oso... then its like one very big happy family outing. Luve 'em sho sho much~~~

- dojie -

cousin's wedding

2007-04-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

Yo minna~

Hisashiburi... Fuuh... Alot of things happened... Happy moments... Enjoyable moments... Currently in a mixed feelings between happy & sad...

Last 2 weeks was kak nana's wedding. Had alot of fun there. Its been quite sometime since we had a good laugh together as a family. Aniki was there... His gf was also there... She's a very soft spoken gal, the most opposite of me... Aniki was never with us whenever we went out for an outing. Unc, daddy's kiddo bro was released on d saturday. Was very happy with the release. Too bad didnt get to take photos with him. Please enjoy the pix:

Date: 06.Apr.07. Venue: @home & Kembangan. People: Family plus kak aishah, kak sha, atok abah, wak jual satay n the rest of d extended families.

Date: 07.Apr.07. Venue: Kembangan & inside car. People: the usuals.

Actually i'm very sad. Y? its because during the wedding, we didnt get to take photos as family with the bride & groom, again. Anyway, cant be bothered.

ja~ will update soon~~

-loves... dojie-

ouch... it hurts

2007-03-27T15:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to see the dentist.... My 1st wisdom tooth came out... & its hurting like hell... actually not... d doc scolded me... wanna know why? coz d last time when i went to see him, it was 2002. now, its 2007 oredi... its just dat i dont wanna go doc, its just dat i'm scared... Only got 1 day MC... should have asked for more... yay... didnt go to work today... n its getting worse. cant even open up my mouth wide... haiiz...

anyway.. uploading a few more outings dat I forgotten to update...

Date: 03.Feb.07. Place: Popeye's @ T1. People: Me, Tiin, Rashid, Achid, Wid n her mother. Occasion: Celebrating achid's n wid's bdae.

Date: 10.Mar.07. Place: Angsana @ JB. People: Me, Kak Aishah, Afiq, Khairi & Rahim. Occasion: Celebrating Afiq's bdea.

Date: 24.Mar.07. Place: Busstop opp of Bugis Junction. People: Me, Kak Aishah, Ummi, Ibu & Ayah.

outings with khairi & afiq

2007-03-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

YO MINNA~~~

genki??? its another hot nite here in spore... d weather is getting weirder n weirder... sometimes will be sunny... in a few minutes time, it will be very cloudy and before u know it, its raining heavily.... luv d rainy season....

ok... now, we have new people to add in to our extended family. presenting khairi & afiq... both of them are very nice people to hang out with... went to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle @ Great World City... its my 1st time going there n can foresee dat will be watching alot of movies there...

please enjoy the pix below... as always... luv ya all... muackx

Date: 25.March.07. Place: Great World City & Chinatown. People: Me, achid, Kak Aishah, Khairi & Afiq. 4th outing with the boys.

oh yarh, btw, lupe nak update the previous outings.... Ok, the following slide is the previous outing with them oso, didnt have the chance to upload it.

date: 17.March.07. Place: Plaza Bowl (Textile Ctr). People: Me, Ummi, Achid, kak Aishah, Khairi & Afiq. 3rd outing with the boys. 1st for achid.

celebrating kak aishah's new job

2007-03-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

yo people... hisashiburi~~ how r u guys doing??? yes... yes... understand... its been quite sometime since i last update in my blog. alot of things happened. its been a month since kak aishah started working @ her new place n me all alone in d office. anyway, please enjoy the pix. currently no idea on wat to blog.

27.Jan.07. Place: Popeye's @ T1 airport. People: Me, Kai, Ni, Ummi & Kak Aishah.

31.Jan.07. Place: Swensen's opp takashimaya. People: Me, Kai, Ni & d honourable Kak Aishah

01.Feb.07. Place: Lau Pa Sat. People: Me, Dennis, Joe, JC & again d honourable Kak Aishah

and so... do stay tuned for the next updates... till then... luv u all~~~ muackx~~~

1st posting for 2007

2007-01-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yay people... Happy New Year... May dis year be better than last year & wat we're planning for d whole year will be done smoothly... May our dreams be reality... May Lady Luck will always be by our side... May we will hear good & happy news through out dis year... AMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNN!!!!~~~

Hamdan lillah.... When looking back at 2006, I have accomplish a few things which I didnt get to do d previous previous years.... I got my 1st proper & permanent job as a customer service agent cum admin, took JLPT 4 in Dec and d Japanese Language classes...

A few of my good frens got engaged & married. May more to come this year. I even heard dat one of them is expecting oredi... Its quite fast though... Coz she's still studying in al-Azhar...

A very sad incident happened in May. My grandma passed away. May she rest in peace.... AMIN~

Still hoping that for 2007, I'm able to finish d Intermediate class n my driving license.... Guys, pls pray hard for me k... Ganbarimasu...

2006-10-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

People come n people go. We will meet new frens n we will lose them along d way. Its actually a shame losing someone dat u've known for a few years now but coz of selfishness n stubborness, one cant do anything bout it except to just let go n bid farewell.

"We waived each other goodbye silently,
Hopefully ure happy with d way
How things turned out,
Coz its how u want it to be..."

I've been saying alot of goodbyes these past few weeks. Hopefully its not a bad sign...

goodbye yusaku

2006-09-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

Just reached home from the airport... 1st time in my life i paid $24.70 for my taxi fare... so damn expensive. But then, at least i reach home within 20 mins...

Just now, we bid farewell to our fren... kinda sad when we're thinking he's not here anymore. have been wondering wat would he do when he's back in Japan....

We did quite a number of activities with him. Remembered when we played 'jan ken pon', japanese style of 'scissor paper stone' n for d loser, have to eat durian... poor yusaku... he played n lost d game. took 2 purikura with him. made him wear d traditional baju kurung. forced him to eat traditional malay food. somehow our last activity was to break fast together @radin. that was where we 1st met him. n just now was d last time we sat on d same table, eating, drinking n it was fun. 6 months went by so fast... didnt even realise dat it has been 6 months oredi.

Still wondering wat he will be doing when he returns to Japan... Will he still think of us like how we're thinking of him??? haix...

had a really bad day @ work

2006-08-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

for d 1st time in my life, i was being scolded coz i gave our customer dis one department, their emails. i mean, i was being scolded for wat i wasnt being told about n later on, being scolded again coz of d same issue... come on, is it fair for me oso? how come nobody told me properly on how d procedures will be like? n just put all d blame on me.... my mood to work for today was gone instantly. good thing it happened when its nearly time to go home.

oh god, pls dont let me go through dat incident again. pls give me a sign, any sign, so dat i will not make d same mistake, again... amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnn~

yosha~

2006-08-02T20:27:00.000+08:00

konbanwa minna~

k... currently i'm in a very cheerful mood... yesterday celebrated my dad's 51st bdae. we bought him a kawaii grey messenger bag... n my cousin actually delivered a big brownie cheesecake to our house.... its like ooooooooooooooookiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii desu~ she really gave both our parents a big surprise. us 5 (excluded aniki), ate 1/4 of d cake n all of us were bloated. demo sa... all of us had fun... can see d happiness on both our parents' faces...

on sat, we celebrated my mom's 5oth bdae. my unc n aunt came over... she was oso happy... can see her face glow...

dis sat... umi's bdae... still wondering wat to buy for her... n i cant believe dat my baby sister is 15 dis year... 15 sai no blues~ hahax.... i kept seeing her as a lil baby... even though she's all grown up... is dat how our parents look at us? i mean, even though we're all grown up, me n aniki are currently working, kai is taking her A'levels n umi is sec 3 dis year... they will still see us as lil children?

dis month, my pocket has a very ooooooooookiiiiiiii hole... celebrating 3 bdaes straight...

k... i think i'm gonna talk about happy things....

cant believe dat i'm working @ HP for 2 months oredi.... hontou... i've received 2 paychecks... its like... unbelievable.... everyday i've been draging my feet to work... when i 1st started... now, i'm looking forward to go to work.... all coz of my main goal... to save money to go on a trip to Japan~

yosha~ cant wait to go to Japan... hopefully i can go to Japan within our time limit... ne gals... ganbatte... if others can do it, so can us~ sho damn happy.... yay~

frustrated...

2006-06-23T15:54:00.000+08:00

here i am today, @ work, doing nothing... so bored... cant do anything... even though i'm surfing d net, its still boring. erm... wat to do?

rite now, i'm so damn angry... becoz of wat? bcoz of these bloody cust keep calling to complain bout all d small stuffs... its not our problem but why should u vent ur anger on us? it just so happened dat we're d call agents who picked up ur phonecall 1st instead. damn all those people... just feeling damn frustated.

going back home now. hopefully, i'm okie over d weekends

2006-06-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

ogenki desu ka minna? hopefully u r all fine. here i am, at my cousin's house, updating my blog. its been a while since i last blog. why issit? hmm... lemme see... i've been quite busy these past few weeks. my grandma was warded n died 1 week later. somehow i still feel dat she is still with us... everyday watching over us... may u rest in peace... amin...

today, is my 9th day working with hp... erm... no, its not handphone... its Hewlett Packard... alhamdulillah... lady luck is on my side... hopefully she will stay by my side longer... i've been in n out of work for d past few months since i graduated...

d japanese class was wonderful... last sat was d 4th class... n we celebrated tiin's bdae during break time with sensei... talking bout sensei... her surname is matsumoto... i still dont know her name... gonna ask her on our next class... she's cute... n she can speak bahasa indonesia very well... she said dat she took a 6 months course n her sensei who taught her was actually a japanese... wanna noe why? 'sebab pacarnya org indonesia'... hohohohoho... isnt it cute...

right now, its hot on d inside but when i put my hands outside d window, d air is so cool... feel like sitting on d window ledge... looking at d stars... enjoying d cool nite breeze... how wonderful life could be... not complaining but d temperature really irritates me... how i wish i could go n live in north pole of south pole.... coz i love cold places...

thinking of cold places makes me wanna eat ice cream... i should go n buy a tub n eat it by myself.... hmm... no... i should share... cant be greedy... yay... cant wait to eat ice cream....

i wanna watch d omen... its been a while since i watched a scary movie... n yarh... today is 06/06/06... they say its a suay day... children born on this day are d devil's child... haiyo... people cant actually blame d day or d children... its not their fault... n u cant blame god oso...

before i talk more bout bout crappy things, i think its better for me to stop till here...

genki?

2006-04-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

yosh... hisashiburi minna... its been a while since i last updated my blog... alot happened... happy n bad memories had been filling me up for d last few months... when i checked earlier on, i was quite shocked... d last entry was on d 10th of January... n now, its d 23rd of April...

curently, im so excited bout my japanese class... really looking forward for it to start. but then, as i was counting away d days till d class starts, i received a very sad sms saying dat our class will be postponed a week later due to polling day. haiz... so sad. oh well, hopefully it wont be postponed again.

anyway, was just in d mood to actually say something but then i think i will add do it next time... not in d mood to actually rant it all out. anyway, here are a few pix dat i really like. till im in d mood to type something... bubye

T___T

2006-01-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

today is d raya haj... every year, without fail, we would be happily celebrating this festive by waking up early in d morning, get dressed up in new clothes, go to mosque, then went to grandma house, then watched d goats being slaughtered, got home, then play with our cousins n when by midnight, everyone in d house would be sound asleep. but for me, this year, we didnt feel anything.

1st time dat we didnt go to d mosque, woke up late, feeling all moody, especially me, kept feeling wanted to cry but didnt know y, fight with my bro n it kinda went out of hand, thank god my auntie n my mom was there... was the only one to wear old clothing instead of the new ones coz i got no mood to celebrate today's festival...

i pulled a very long face d whole day, from i woke up in the morning till we went home from grandma's house at around 10pm.... i hated myself for being this way but i still dont know how to make myself happy n smile... hopefully tomorow's a better day than today n when i wake up in the morning, i can smile and be myself once more...

yes... be myself once more... d cheerful dja... always smiling... always happy bout herself... not wasting her time thinking bout unnecessary things.... d always big sister to all... living life to the fullest...

yes... u must do it... ganbatte... yey ^___^ v

wat goes around comes around...

2006-01-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

7 days had passed... alot of things had happened... this morning, i was awaken with a sad news... my grandma (father side) was robbed of her jewelery... police came to her house... blah blah blah... i was not so interested in her story... for me, i think she deserves it... she did alot of horrible things to innocent people... i think its kinda like Allah's punishment for her... i dont know... i believe in karma... wat goes around comes around... thats y i always have this principle of "biarkan org buat kite, jgn kite buat kat org" (let people do nasty things to us, not us doing d nasty things to others).

kinda happy for today... went to jb... take something... cannot say it now... then d funny thing is, me, kai n Ni was at jb for only 1 hour. yes... its true... we were there for only 1 HOUR!!! d longest part of us going there was when we have to wait to chop our passport at d malaysian imigration... we were stuck there for 1hour+.... ate at sushi king... (RM89 for us 3) n we tried to catch d 5 o'clock train but we missed it by 1 MINUTE!!!!! i was so frustrated, i just walked to d imigration without waiting for kai... reached home around 6.45 pm... so damn tired... i actually slept after d maghrib prayers... haiz... have to wake up coz have to go to grandma house...

i finally got to see my new nephew... i dont remember his name... but my cousin, d father, ask me to call him aisy... or is it aesh... i dont know d spelling... he's cute... really cute... carried him for a long time till my sweater smelt like him... then after playing with his older siblings... we went to grandma house...

i dont like to go to my grandma house... i dont like her... n i oso dont like my grandpa... wat can i say... i dont like people swearing n for her, swearing is nothing.... its like an everyday routine for her... haiyo... thank god i dont like to swear... n i really hate people swearing in front of me... i've always felt dat its as if their parents never taught them how to be polite n nice to other people...

here i am again... in front of d pc... trying to find a job... done my resume but still think dat its still bare... need to add something interesting... not gonna make those fancy resume which is not me... n i'm not gonna flatter myself just to get me a job... if dat job is really for me, it will come to me, eventually... rite now gonna finish my resume 1st... pass it to koseki coz he said he wanna help me find a job oso... then gonna try distributing it but still dont know to who... ermmm... maybe i'll go job-hunting after d raya haji...

yarh... now i remembered, last tues, i went to dojo... coz i was out d whole day with kai, so was planning to go home late... then suddenly sensei said dat he wanted to be my personal trainer. i was so speechless, he just went on and on on how i should wear, what day i have to come, blah blah blah... n he asked me to send my resume to MOM... blah blah blah... (dis part i couldnt hear properly... its like i was so amazed by him dat all of his words came in my right ear n went out of my left ear) i was so touched by sensei... i dont know y... its like... he's always been d funny n nice person... he doesnt discriminate people... he respects u even if u r from different religion... n its hard to find people nowadays who r kind like him...

cant wait for today... zaida's party n meeting koseki... yey... i think zaida's gonna remember this party forever!~

i've lived yet another year...

2006-01-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

my 1st post for d year 2006!!!~

2 days into d new year, i think i've gone quite a long way... thank god, i'm still able to pass yet another year without any major problems n being able to meet quite a lot of interesting people to add to my frens collection.

a few days before d new year, i went to kelantan. yup... kelantan... its been 3 months since i last went there. i kinda miss d place. its actually a last minute plan. my aunt called to n ask whether i'm free or not. since i'm free, she asked me to accompany her there coz she has something to attend to n oso, to take my diploma.

miss my juniors... miss my lecturers... miss my frens... miss d food... miss d place... miss d beaches... n lastly, miss d time when i was there. 3 years passed so quickly... miss my old campus... miss my arabic lecturer... he's d only one dat i can really fight with, verbally. kinda sad when he said that he quitted his job... i cried when we held a party for him...

i got a new handphone!!! so happy!!! its a slim slip phone... a panasonic vs2. actually, i was advised not to buy d phone bcoz of d company's going to shift out of spore, their share's gonna go way down, n when i want to trade in my phone, it wont cost a lot. but while i was waiting for my no, i kinda visualise myself using this phone for around 2 years. before, i'm using a nokia 6100 for 3 years... n all i can say is dat i take care of my things n they can last for a long time... so i decide dat i would take dat phone no matter wat... n now, i'm a proud owner of my phone.

for this year, i hope i can get a steady job... get to know lots n lots of people... stay single... live life to d fullest... enjoy my life... n i think it should be enough for today...

it hurts, deep down inside

2005-12-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

my aunt n my unc came to see my grandma n my mom. a simple visit turned up to be a hurting experience for me. i just dont like it when people start to swear. it all started when he ask me y i didnt apply at muhamadiya. then i said, my senior say better not. try applying elsewhere so we have a wide spread. then he said something that really shocked me n really made me feel really really small n sad n made me cry. he said:"'to hell ur senior. f*** her... u know y she said that its because she's afraid u will take away her bowl of rice n u will do much better than her!!!"

after he said dat, i just couldnt stand it. i just stand up n walked to my room. i felt like i'm useless. then i heard them say bout a few people, wat they were doing n all n all i can hear from my unc were just bad comments bout them. saying that they like to take advantage of people, blah blah blah blah blah... i just hate it when they do dat... but then wat can i do??? they've been living on this planet LONGER than me... haiz...

wooooooooooot!~

2005-12-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

guess wat people... today i went out with koseki-san!~ but not me with me only. kai, umi, Ni, achid n tiin were oso there. we watch d chronicles of narnia, d lion, d witch n d wardrobe. we watch it at bedok cinema. okie people, i wanna tell u guys bout it.

d cinema is like any other old type of cinema in spore.
d tix is cheap ($5 mon-thurs, $6 for fri n debut movies n $7 weekends).
d seating is like any other cinema.
no mouse will be seen playing catching in there,
damn cold
damn noisy (u can even hear other people talking, even in whispers)
its like u r watching tv at home (not like d ones dat u r watching at a normal cinema)
cant stand it when hps are ringing in d middle of d movie. it is really distracting!!!

overall, its okie. out of 5stars, i'll give it a 3. just dont forget to bring sweater if u cant stand d coldness. bring ur own food if u like to munch like me. u can even bring mee goreng, nasi ayam n even any other food dat u want (its a joke Ni likes to make) without being stop by d jaga.

on top of dat, i get to sit next to koseki-san. i was happy. DAMN HAPPY!~ ^____________^ i actually wanted to talk to him during d movie, like i usually did with any other frens but THEN malay words kept coming out of my mouth n i had to tap tiin, who's on my left so dat i dont make a fool out of myself (as i said, since u can hear other people whispering, how can u not hear me talking??? people can mistake me for talking to myself). argh... i can see dat he was bored coz no one talked to him n he was seated at d end of our row.

i was thinking, throughout d movie outing today, i didnt just bowed to him. i talked to him. yup, i talked to him. although alot of short conversations, i did talk to him instead of just bowing. i hope to talk to him even more in d future. ganbatte dja!!! chaiyo!!!

enough of todays events. last week, alot happened. happy events n oso sad events. sum it all up, i find dat i have to find a real job, ones dat i have to go to everyday, n i will get a pay every month n oso have to do wat i have to do in order to gain wat i've sowed, as soon as possible. i kinda find my dad is old oredi. n since my mom had stopped werking since she give birth to me, who else can i lean onto for money??? i cant ask my dad for money everytime i wanna go out n i oso cant expect my bro to actually give me an allowance every month? he's been a jerk... a very big j*c* *ss since he started werking. he never helps out with d bills, groceries n stuff. he didnt even give my mom partial of his pay. last week, my couzin called me n said dat her fren needed someone who could werk part time for 2 months. since i need a job badly, i thought, y not i just give it a try. called d guy n i was expected to come down for an interview dis tues, rite after d xmas holiday. n d best part is, d place is just 2 bus stops away from my house. isnt it wonderful?

these past few days really tested my patience. my grandfather was ill, all of a sudden, without any cause. when my unc wanted to bring him to d hospital, he declined. but from my observation, he just wanted attention. i didnt say it without prove. d prove was actually being shown to me rite infront of me. 1st incident was when he ask me bout d time. he told me dat d clock was spoilt (but then it was werking perfectly well) n ask me change d batt. then when my grandmother walked passed him, he was groaning in pain but when she wasnt there, he was sitting perfectly fine, watching me played game with his legs crossed. then he actually asked my grandma to carry him to d toilet. in my mind i was shouting R U OUR OF UR MIND??? WHO DO U THINK U R??? my poor grandma actually carried him but i can see dat he was shaky all over coz he was trying very hard to harden himself. he force my grandma to carry him, but ended up sitting on d floor. i wanted to scold him but i kept quiet coz i wanted to see wat he wants to do next. my poor father, who was tired from work, tried to help him stand up but he still force himself to harden himself which caused lots n lots of trouble to my dad. finally, my dad just force him to stand up but he urinated all d way to d toilet. my poor dad had to clean it. its not dat we, me, umi, kai n my mom didnt want to help. its just dat we were too caught up with our hatred towards my grandfather (it was an old story) with all of d lies he told us n nasty stuffs dat he used to do to us. then when my unc came, he became more ill n did something that really made me pissed off. he "accidentally" fell of d bed n made alot of noise, banging d closet n d floor. i was shocked to see him made my dad n my unc a fool out of themselves, running from d hall all d way to his room. then he kept making weird noises throughout d nite which made me woke up a few times n made my grandma did stupid things like massaging him n asking her to take his medicine in d middle of d nite. i wanted to tell him off but my mom was against it. i just wanted to see how long he could do his "show". my grandma told me dat he actually hadnt taken his bath for 3 days!!! 3 WHOLE DAYS!!! n know wat my youngest sis told me? she said, "atok didnt want to talke his baths because he didnt want to get well. if he took his bath, he will feel better n dat will be d end to his "show"". i told my mom bout it n she just laughed to it. n today, i saw him pretty well. my dad told him a joke. asking him y he didnt want to take his bath. is it because he was took some "ilmu". hahax.... anyway, he's back to his old self again today. watching tv late at nite (he likes to watch mtv or any channel with naked women), sleep throughout d day n kept pestering my poor old grandma to cook him meals dat he rarely eats (every dish dat he ask, he will only eat 2-3 mouthfulls only). for me, my grandfather is d meanest human ever. my unc, who was busy with his work, my aunt was hopitalised coz of her illness, his father-in-law just came home from d hospital, was forced by HIM to buy this medicated oil, which was not easy to find in spore. but he did find it n bought it for him. but still, he cant feel grateful enough of wat his son has done for him see d goodness his own son had given him. he still wants more. all i can say is dat he will be happy n healthy at d sight of money.

wow... this is d longest post dat i had ever typed. kinda feel abit light-headed after telling it off. i just wanted my family to live peacefully, liked we used to be, b4 my grandparents moved in with us. all 4 of us, still closed with one another, without my bro being a d*mn *ss. i was as happy n free as a bird then, being able to soar sky high without anything blocking my path. how i miss those carefree days

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2005-12-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

i was devastated when i found out dat someone actually block me from his msn acc. its like, wat wrong did i ever done? am i a bad person? then i kinda find out that it was purely a mistake coz of d 1st letter of my name. but then y didnt u unblock me? i'm really really sowie if i made u feel bad. its oso my fault. but still cant get it out of my mind. i'm gonna feel really really really bad till u accept my apology.

from d bottom of my heart, i' m sorry *bows down*

howdy

2005-12-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

at last, i have d time to actually write something here. yeah yeah i know. its been ages since i last updated my blog. wat to do, no time. i've actually been busy doing NOTHING... even if i wanted to recap things, alot had happened. below are some of d highlights. kinda lazy to actually write bout everything. just a few to share with u guys

FASTING MONTH (oct-nov)

during d fasting month, my fav granduncle passed away. its actually a big loss for me coz he's been my inspiration n my motivational teacher all this while. like his jokes, (he will never laugh at his own jokes but he will keep repeating d joke till that person understands his jokes) like how he talked to others n he will never looked down on others no matter wat. went to his funeral n i can see dat he was smiling peacfully. cant talk much bout him coz i'll start crying everytime i think of him.

al-fatihah. may his soul rest in peace

RAYA MONTH (nov-dec)

raya dis year is ok. i kinda miss d older days when i'm still in sec sch where i'll go to lots of houses, eat lots of fabulous dishes n d highlight of raya, i'll get lots n lots of MONEY!~ yup, miss those days. now, not getting as much as i used to coz i've finished school.

1 of my schoomate got married. she was d most beautiful bride dat i've ever seen (to tell u d truth, any bride is beautiful. from d bottom of my heart. not lying). met lots of my long lost frens. heard dat more n more of my schoolmates are getting hitched next year. GANBATTE!~ just dont forget to invite me to ur wedding k dearies. suddenly, i'm feeling old but staying single ROCKX. *psssst* guys, can i be their godmum??? *blink blink*

my aunt got married, again. its her 3rd marriage n i pray n hope dat may dis marriage will last a lifetime *amin*

DECEMBER (early dec till yesterday)

i met a wonder lady. she's all so sweet n cute but she looked like she has gone through alot these past few days. she's actually fadhila's fren. although she's way way way older than fadhila, i guess, to be a true fren, age is not a prob n that there shouldnt be a limit. she's a nice person coz she treated us (me, umi n fadhila) icecream n stuff at swensens. (its not just coz she treated us, its just dat i feel dat she is nice n all deep down inside me) since i have a very sweet tooth, i just cant resist to forgo an irresistable offer. but then, i'm touched by her story n after reading her blog just now, i really sympathise with her.

all i can just hope n pray for her is dat she will find her Mr Right soon, who'll love her n cherish her n will take good care of her.

after meetin her, i joined d kobudo jujitsu christmas party. plenty of food, luvs d desserts (i have a very sweet tooth) n i kinda feel unlucky coz my no wasnt chosen to win all d fabulous prizes. how i wish i would win d samsung dvd player but alas, it was won by a kid. dat kid is lucky

1st time met koseki. he's cute, macho n i was actually speechless when i saw him. i wanted to talk to him, have a lil chat but words werent coming out from my mouth. i ended up bowing to him everytime i met him. so i regretted for not saying anything.

everyone looked great. saw mark, lihan n gaby wearing blazers. they were like, SO DAMN HANDSOME N CUTE. its just a compliment. not more than dat.

i've always luv balloons but since an accident dat happened to me a few years ago, i've been terrified by it. i mean, i can blow it, knot it, play with it but i cant hear it being burst. i felt like my heart is being pulled out painfully everytime i hear it burst.but y cant my sisters understand what i'm going through? they even make jokes bout it but y cant they, for once, understand me?

i'm sick

2005-10-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

today is d 1st day of fasting... its a cool day (temp is 27 degress), i'm down with flu, my nose is blocked, my throat is so dry i cant even swallow my saliva. its 11.30 n i'm not even hungry or thirsty...

actually, its been a very very long time since i've updated my blog. its not because of i'm busy. its because of i dont seem to have d time of actually sitting in front of d lappie. since d monitor broke down, again, i actually forgotten dat i have a lappie n can use it to surf or wateva. anyway, been caught up in making my own bags... yup... MAKING MY OWN BAGS... if i can make it really nice, i can actually sell them... n make lots n lots of money... n open my own shop... n eventually have my own factory making customize bags at a low price... haha... but then i think it will be decades before i can open my own shop.

ouh yeah, my graduation was a blast. it was held near a beach, most of my batch was there... just a bit sad my sporean male juniors were not there. if not, it would have been perfect. i think i'll include some of d pix on wat i've been up to lately. think dats all for now

yey!~

2005-08-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

just came back from 2 interviews today. so tired. if i get d job, at least i dont need to actually find another job n have to actually go through another interview. sebenarnye nk gi interview amat memenatkan. wats keeping me happy is dat my convo is nearing... yesh... on d 11.sept. but then, on dat date, a few years ago, happened something sad... no need to go through d details. semue org tau kan psl ari tu.....

anyway, rase mcm lame giller tk tulis something. yesterday was lil nabila's 7th bdae. although she's sick (been on a fever for almost 2 weeks) she was d happiest girl eva. well, she got 7 presents from us (including abg) then got 2 bdae cakes (sape yg tk hepi sey) n d best part was, she was not having dengue or chicken pox... good for her...

need money for my convo. who's willing to give me money? sape yg baik hati, meh lah bg... sy menerima seikhlasnye... lg best kalo tk yah keje langsung... get to get free money...

haiz...

2005-07-28T18:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my last day of attachment. i think i'm attached to that place. haix... anyway, going back to "dat place" tomolow nite

overwhelmed n touched...

2005-06-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

today, my frens from college came n i cooked spaghetti for them, as always. then this one guy didnt eat spaghetti n i was like "OMG, what to cook for him??? cant let him starve!!!" then he said its okie. he will eat it n he finished d whole plate... i'm overwhelmed by his effort of not making me feeling guilty but i could see how hard he struggle to force it down his throat... n for dat i thank him... bile eh korang nk kuar? tomolow aku dh start aku nye practical...

hipe hipe hooraaaaaaaaaaaayyy!~

2005-06-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

yay... as in today, i'm freee!~ well tk lah free sgt... tinggal praktikal jek but then tesis n pembentangan tesis, i did quite okie... heheheeh... rase mcm satu beban jek dah lepas... tinggal satu then... KONvo!~
u guys, make urself free this sept k... tk confirm lagi bile but make urself free... turon kelantan... tgk aku konvo... hehehe... bile lagi kan... later on, bile masing2 dh bz dgn keje, kite dh tk jumpe... k...
then, aku mcm prasan yg mcm tk de org jek yg tulis pape kt sini... tot ramai2 nk coret sesuatu utk tatapan kwn2 yang bersepah di serata tempat... mcm tk jd je atau smue malas???? well, pape nanti calling2 k

aloha!~

2005-05-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

1st time sey tulis kat blog... donno wat to say... anyway, just wanna tell u all dat AKU DAH NAK ABISH BLAJA!!!! hehehe.... aku akan abish officially dis august... doakan lah aku nye tesis menjadi... dh lah asyik kene reject... kene bentang dis 15 jun, satu hapak pon aku blom wat... tensyen... anyway... miz u guyz alot... nanti aku balik after bentang, make sure korang ade ah... hurray hurray dulu b4 aku wat aku nye praktikal... anyway... tu je for today... sambong next time...