Saye lapar. Td kate da siap masak smue. Bile balik tak ade makanan. Pd hal td kate will save some for me. Camne nie. Geram tau. Bile balik tak makan, kene marah. Ckp next time tak nak masakkan lg. cube kalo anak kesayangan minta suroh masakkan, bukan main suke lg masak. Lepas tuh kite2 pon tak bley makan. Haiiizz.

Kat mane lagi nak luahkan perasaan? Mcm da penat larh dgr isi hati org lain. Sape nak dgr isi luahan hati saye nie? Shouldnt have went to 4pm sey. Shorter time to revise. Alurh, nak revise ape sey. I dont even understand d whole module. Bile agaknye nak paham? Lg 2 hari nak UT2 and bley nak main2 lagi. Cepat2 larh habis so dat i can move on to Phase 2!

Dja sedar dja nie sape. Best fren saye da tak ade di sisi. At least dulu ade jugak tempat nak mengadu. Skrg? Kat rumah da tak mcm dulu. Nenek larh tempat saye bermanje. Sejak nenek dok umah paman, sunyi rasenye hati ku ini. At least there is still someone to talk n laugh with. Satu-satu pergi meninggalkan saye. So now i have to stand alone?

Will anyone miss me when im gone?

i am who i am
11:55 PM

yesterday was another long day where i didnt have the time to rest or going out with friends. I want to have my license fast. Onegaishimasu.

2 theory classes back to back was not bad at all but the in-between was worst. had to wait 100 mins before my next class. good thing unc was in the area. he treated me breakfast/lunch. hahahaha. lame sey tak kuar ngan pakcik sorg tuh. ngan die sorg jek.

head is still spinning from doing his accounts. haiiz. today having evaluation. hope to pass so i can proceed with the test already.

Currently in office with the cleaning lady. tak pe. yg lain tak masok pon bagos. bley relax sikit. nnti lunch nak kene bace buku. buku basic n riding theory. all the best!!!

i am who i am
9:18 AM

Oh yea. Tompang telingz on bike n tumtum with ni. Its nice. First time riding that far n dat fast. Seram pon seram arh tp experience die best. Maybe next time it will b me riding n telingz d pillion.

Sunny day and the wind that was blowing was nice. When the classroom was cool, you noe wat u get. Sleepyhead dja. Yes. Dats right. I was dozing off unconsciously a lot of times. Especially before n after lunch. The best partis, i can still write when dozing. Good thing i was not snoring. Hahahaha.

Took freebies from RP's open house. Didnt manage to screen through yet but will do so tomorrow.

Met Nick before going jiji adi' house. It was nice talking & catching up on him. Now i noe wat facial wash n perfume he's using. Hohoho. Ok, im not a stalker k. We went to accompany him buy his stuff. Ape jek.

Nenek cooked mee for us. Yea, misses dat very very much. When she's here, i noe i can depend on her n also manja2 with her. Dgn mak aku, jgn harap. Nak manje2 mesti kene marah nye. Ngan sape lagi kan kalo tak ngan nenek aku. Atok is forever irritating so lets not talk about him.

Bsok i got my RTL1.01 class at 9.20am. Better sleep now. Tak bley bgn, mati larh. Tak bley masok class pasal lmbt n duit burn. Tak bley. Tak bley. This month very very tight.

I would like to qoute from my lecturer: no complains doesnt mean no problems.

Sekian, selamat malam

i am who i am
11:37 PM

Usually the first post of the year would be "oh wow !! My first post for the year, yadda yadda yadda" eh, tak penat ke nak ulang bende yg same tiap kali nak update post?

Tahun baru azam baru. Eh, masih ade org yg blogging ke? Lame dok aku memblogging nie. Dr zaman aku skola dulu. The most in thing sey. Skrg? Da ade facebook da tak de org pon updateblog diorg. Mungkin digunakan utk menjual barangan mereka aje. Slain drpd itu, kalo nk luahkan perasaan kat sini, lame dok nak dpt reaction org ramai. Lg bagos kat facebook kan. Lepas aje update status, ramai jek org2 kepo yg action n step showing concer comment kat post ko tuh kan. Tapi tak ape. Lebih elok pasal at least kalo saye luahkan perasaan kat sini pon, kalo tak ade org ataupun ingat yg blog nie masih wujud, lebih selamat. Mane tak nye, tak dikunjungi org. Kalo ade pon ape salah nye kan. Saye tak pakse pon suroh pegi cari blog nie utk bace setiap keluhan dan rintihan hati yg kecik ini.

Kalo larh nak update pasal diri ku ini amat larh pjg so to save the hassle, tak payah larh saye cerita. Betol tak?

Besok skola jd perlu larh saye mengundurkan diri utk tidur dan akan di sambung pada keesokan hari nye ye.

Selamat malam dan mimpi larh yg indah~

i am who i am
12:16 AM

Oh, its 2011 already & my first post for d year. Still surviving even though have not been updating this regularly like last time. I miss my free time. I miss my short trips. I miss my old me. 2010 has been a very tiring year. Pilot project, tonnes of scolding sessions, helping events but was not appreciated. The best part was i thought by doing the other werk i would be happier. It was not. It became worst.

Sessions was different. Programme-wise, we still have to conduct. I just dont get it. The rest d people who r doing d same r just clocking in d sessions. Why issit different? Just because im just a diploma holder? Even so, d shit dat i have to go thru, its definitely more than them. But pay-wise, d difference is significant. And now im hearing u r over-paying some staff!? How ironic.

I am very tired of all the nonsensical act in d office. I wanna go away, very far from everybody. Be it colleagues, friends & even family members. I wanna go where people doesnt know me n i can start anew. Easier said than done dja.

Ive had it. Ive had it from everyone!!!!

Not only with werk, even my friends, who used to b very close since secondary school are like trying to find faults with me. Arent u all suppose to know me best.
The conversation i had with her:
Her - djah..aku hrp ko shat2 slalu la k..aku nk ucp trime ksh kt ko sb lupekn kwn2 ko..aku tau ko skrg da bjaya..watever it is aku slalu ingt kwn2 aku&aku tk sgka rupenya kwn aku lupekn org lain..jg diri bbaik ar eh..
Me - Huh? Aku tak paham. Ape maksod? Kalo ko kate aku lupe kan kengkwn, i beg to differ. Aku slalu ingat psl kengkwn aku. Aku ade gak kol/sms tp so far, kengkwn yg tak ingat aku. Aku sendiri tak tau knp ko ckp mcm gitu. Korg smue mane bile aku perlukan korg? So far smue cari aku bile nak kahwin, buat outing atau bersalin. Lepas tuh? N by d way, ko da kenal aku bape lame eh? U should noe me best. Berjaya? U think so? Alhamdulillah. Doakan larh ye
Her - Yg aku mksdkn,geng2 kt..ktorg smua maklum ko sbuk..aku pnh je msg ko,tp ko tk reply..ko kt ktorg mana ms ko perlukn ktorg?ko d cr ktorg ke?aku so far bab kwn aku tk pnh tolak..aku,aishah n yaya pape ktorg akn tnykn ko..aku dgn yaya pun bknnye slalu cntct..ktorg kalo d pape,ktorg ingt kt ko..mgkn sb ms2 ktorg kt msia tp ni bkn excuse..seriously kalo d pape,tgn ktorg sntiasa bkak tuk ko..ko je tk pnh tanyakn ktorg..aku sdh sb ko g tgk k.nurul tk bilg..mgkn aishah n yaya tk rs tp aku je yg sdh..aku sygkn psahabtn kwn2 aku esp.ko,haidah,yaya n aishah..ni je kwn2 yg aku rapat..tk bmakna tk cntct ko,aku lupakn ko..ko je yg sbuk..aku PERNAH msg ko,tp ko TAK reply..
Me Yana, sejak bile nye ko sms aku tak pernah reply? Busuk2 aku, paling2 pon aku reply bsok nye. Mmg skrg aku tgh sibok giller. Balik lewat mlm. Hujung minggu kene keje tp tuh da mmg dlm name keje. Psl kak nurul, aku pegi sendiri pon psl kebetulan aku tgh free dat time. Skurang2nya die larh satu2 manusia yg sentiasa menerima kedatangan aku dgn tgn terbuke. Ko cube tanye pukul brape aku dtg jengok die. Rase2 ko bley g kalo aku kate aku ziarah die kul 9mlm? Aku paham keadaan korg2 yg tk bley balik lewat sbb tuh aku tak ajak. Yg pergi ngan muj n fana pon same. Aku minta maaf larh kalo aku terguris hati ko tp nie larh kehidupan aku skrg. Aku tak pernah niat pon nk sisih kengkwn tp so far aku pon tak pernah dpt ape2 update dr korg. Ape2 hal, jgn kaitkan aku mcm haidah. Kalo korg ajak, pernah aku tolak undangan korg? Terkecuali aku kene kerja, baru aku ckp tak boleh. Lmbt mcm mane pon aku cube usaha utk dtg jugak. Terima kasih krn ingatkan aku yg aku masih ade kengkwn yg masih ingatkan aku. Aku pon actually aru balik dr keje gak so nk bersihkan diri. Good nite n take care
HerSkalipun ktorg tkle ikt ko,at least ko bole bilg or tny kn..tkpe la..mgkn aku je yg salah tafsirkn..aku tk pnh samakn ko dgn haidah sb dr dulu aku mmg org tgh antr korg..n aku tk tau pe mslh korg sbnrnye..mgkn kkurangan aku sbg kwn dan aku tk lyk dianggp sbg kwn..maaf ganggu ko..slmt mlm :'(

I just cant understand why d hell she even has that kind of idea.

i am who i am
11:36 PM